u/Asaenz_0 — reddlx

I’ve lost 100 lbs and still hate how I look

Hi all,

Just need a quick rant about my progress so far, which seems to be all I do on Reddit recently but oh well.

SW: 324 CW: 224 ish

I’ve lost 100 lbs at this point and I still hate my body. Yes I know I need to love myself and work on my mental self worth, all the taglines. If I had told bigger me that we would get to this point and STILL be unhappy with my body I’m not sure I would’ve been able to do it. I’ve started lifting more to help build a good frame but man would it be easier to show up at the gym if I looked like I fit in. I want to look like I work out, heck even look like I’ve lost the weight I have. I feel like I have to wear a sign around “you should see where I started!” So people think I actually care about myself.
Being a slow responder to this drug while others are running around at their goal weight within a year or so is also killer. Like ok good! Took you 3 years to lose 100 lbs! Just another 50 to go!! What’s another two years?!?! You have got to be kidding me.

ALSO is anyone else frustrated with their former selves for allowing themselves to get this freaking big in the first place?! Like damn girl why were you so sad 😭

I hope someone can relate. Thanks for reading my complaints to myself.

u/Asaenz_0 — 12 days ago

▲ 3 r/antidepressants

Withdrawal experience or something else?

Hi all,

Looking for some feedback from others to see if they have experienced anything similar.
I had been on 30 mg of lexapro for the last 5+ years. In November of 2025, I decided I wanted to see how life without the medication would hold up. I tapered off slowly, and have been off the drug for probably 2 months now. The first two weeks were awful as I have seen many describe on the thread. I thought I was doing pretty well after that.

A week ago I went through a “break up” and my mind has been betraying me ever since. I am having so much trouble self regulating. I’m shaking, can’t eat, have pretty much been in fight or flight ever since.
I want to emphasize that I am safe and have a good support system so please don’t be concerned in that aspect.

This reaction my body is having is completely disproportionate to what I’ve emotionally gone through. My relationship of 6 years ended about 3 years ago and I didn’t have these full body intense reactions. I am scared the SSRI has completely destroyed my ability to regulate my own emotions. I really don’t want to go back on the medication, but I’m worried that is the only way to get back to feeling normal. Has anyone experienced anything like this?

Also I’m sure some will say… I have an appointment with my doctor at their soonest availability, I will obviously discuss with a professional.

Thanks!

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u/Asaenz_0 — 13 days ago

▲ 15 r/ChristianDating

Hi Feed.

I’m sure Reddit is the last place I should be in an emotional state but I have outlasted all my friends ability to sleep.

I truly thought I had met someone special. We had an amazing connection, talked on the phone for a week on the phone nightly, and had two dates I think went amazingly. He literally fell asleep on my chest Sunday night. Today, he ended things. Yes I know it was 2 weeks of knowing someone and that is fast.

I could ask a million things, but my main is why would God allow someone to enter my life with everything I am hoping for, just for them to not be the right one? I am starting to lose hope. To wonder if He doesn’t have a plan for me to have a spouse and kids. But if not… why is it so heavy on my heart? Why do I want this all so badly? I am so hurt. I never want to open up again.

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u/Asaenz_0 — 22 days ago