u/Aubreyplazamarryme

anyone else just been basically assigned to folding clothes their whole shift? Department manager will fight if i get placed anywhere else. Definitely not upset since my hours have doubled just don’t know how i become the designated person to fold clothes out of nowhere

I’ve been struggling since i was 14, i am now 17. Everything started getting bad after i got out of an abusive relationship and he started calling me all sorts of things at school, which led to other people calling me fat. I’ve been called fat my whole life, i’ve always been heavier. I’m still not sure why the comments actually started to hurt me. I got used to all the “you’re so fat” comments since i was in kindergarten but this time something in my brain just started telling me to starve and now it’s been nearly 4 years and it’s getting worse and worse.

No one will help me since im in a healthy weight range. I’ve tried asking my mum for help and she just tells me im too fat to have a problem and proceeds to tell me how she was underweight when she was younger.

I’ve tried for so long to get down to a weight where i could finally get help since i can’t get myself to eat normally. But anytime i get down to a certain weight i get so so hungry and i cant stop. Then a month long binge and restrict cycle starts, which makes me feel so bad that i go back to self harming. i tried to help myself a couple months ago, i ate better, i wasn’t weighing myself. Then one comment from my mum on how i was gaining weight made me break down completely. It’s now been a month since that comment and i’ve never been worse.

I am so tired of it all. My hairs been falling out for two years, i used to have such thick hair i loved, now i have bald spots and its so thin. I dropped out of high school since it was affecting my mental health so bad that i couldn’t leave my house, i started to fear people looking at my body. My period stops for months then comes back irregularly and goes again. I can’t remember anything, i can barely do any of my course work, i’m struggling at work since im so tired. I’m supposed to start work placement at a hospital soon and i don’t know how im going to do it. I’m starting to get so scared about what im doing to my body since anytime i eat im in so much pain after, when i wake up the next morning it feels like nothing digested and i just want to cry.

What’s funny is the only person who is noticing something is wrong is a girl i like at work, who i only started talking to a few weeks ago. Compared to people ive known for years who just ignore me or say nothings wrong. I can’t even get myself into see anyone for help since i don’t make enough money and getting mental health support is so expensive in Australia. I just want to be able to eat normally again, i wish i never started to restrict my food. I’ve missed so many things since i don’t want people to see my body.

I’m 17 and lost my dad when i was 9. When he passed i was left 59k and my mum never put the check into a trust fund for me and would always threaten to take the money for herself. Since two weeks ago she has been actually making the move to try and take it. I’m on the verge of being kicked out the house by her and i need to money so i can afford a place to live when im 18. My two questions are is she legally allowed to take the money since it’s not directly in my name. (….. as trustee for ……) I’ve tried talking to her and i currently have the check hidden from her but she can always order another one, i know that since she’s been doing that everytime it expires. The second question is, is she legally allowed to kick me out of my home at 17? She did before when i was 14 because i was struggling severely with my mental health and she didn’t want to deal with me, she hit and cut herself to make it look like i hurt which led to me getting arrested. Back then it was okay cause i had a friend that let me stay for two months. But this time i have no one, no friends, no family, nothing causes she painted me as unstable due to my declining mental health due to no help and told them all i was a drug addict since drugged without my knowledge by a boyfriend at the time.
I just don’t know what to do. My mental health has declined so much because of this. I am so scared and i’m having of ending it all simply cause i don’t know what to do and my life is simply falling apart over an argument about simply going for drive by myself on the weekend. I don’t know who to contact or what to do. I’ve tried asking my step dad but he’s not willing to help me since she told him, that if he helps me in anyway she’s kicking him out. I am only 17, i do have a job but don’t get many shifts. One more question, She won’t let me drink or eat anything that she brought i have to buy it all, is that allowed?. I currently have no money since i had to pay for a tafe course full out and it drained all my savings since she refuses to give me my medical documents stating health conditions that i could’ve used to get it for free. I am currently on day 2 with no food, filling up water bottles down at a bubbler at a park near me. I’m also about to faced with the embarrassment of going to work on my period with no sanity products since i can’t afford to buy any and she won’t help me at all.
I have faced years of abuse from her, hitting, kicking, even stabbing me in the leg once plus years of emotional abuse but this is the worst of it. I am just so scared, i have no one anymore to reach out ask for help with this. I can’t call the police about any of it if it is wrong on what she’s doing since she’s an amputee and she paints herself as i’m abusive when the only time i’ve touched her is when she’s trying to hurt me and i’ve tried to stop her.