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PRAYERS NEEDED! Long but please please read. I need support

I recently found out I was pregnant again, a total shock by the way! I am currently 4w5d and while I’m over the moon I’m also terrified. I carry a mutation for a “milder” form of muscular dystrophy that effects ONLY males that can range anywhere from being unaffected your entire life needing nothing at all to needing a wheelchair eventually at some point in adulthood anywhere from early adulthood to well later into life or even never and just needing other mobility devices. This disease ONLY affects males so any male I have has a 50% chance of having the deletion. I currently have two amazing, perfect sons who are thus far, by the grace of God completely unaffected and thanks to God science is finally finding medications that work at stopping progression for those who do start to get weakness ( one of the big drugs going for approval soon stopped progression all together for the entire 4 years so far the trial has been on going which is HUGE and fingers crossed that continues on into a full cure though no progression would basically be the same thing!!) obviously having 2 sons with the deletion I have met and talked to SO many men living with the same disease and every single one I’ve met has either a marriage, their own children, cool/great careers, travel, etc. whether they are a wheelchair user now as an adult or not.

I have been longing so badly for another child and longing for a daughter/sister for my boys. I have been trying to talk to my husband about ivf which can help avoid any further children being affected. My husband has been on the fence and really leaning towards not wanting a third (his feelings are fair) but, we are very fortunate in all aspects and can afford it easily. I however, absolutely LONG for another. To a point that it’s painful.

I told my husband yesterday about the baby because I needed a few days to sit with it alone. Now let me preface by saying he is an AMAZING Man, a loving husband, the best father, and a great provider. It sounded like he was leaning towards me terminating immediately due to the carrier status I have. He said this very gently but, that was the sounds of it. I understand not wanting to pass this on to another child knowingly (we didn’t know this at all until my youngest was born and we did random newborn screening) and I understand that BUT, there is still a 75% chance this baby wouldn’t have it at all and I just can’t. I want them so badly and I love this baby SO much already. If they are a female, they have a 50% chance of being a carrier (would never be effected since it only effects males) or a 50% chance of not being a carrier at all. If it’s a male they have a 50/50 shot of either having the deletion too or not at all. To me, that’s a huge chance they won’t. He is on the side that we had two boys and they did both end up with the deletion and while I completely understand that, I don’t think I’d ever been able to forgive myself and not think of the “what if it was a girl? What if it was a male that did not have the deletion?” For the rest of my life. I want to do an early gender test and then, if it is a male do the NIPT that will specifically be able to search for this deletion then go from there. My husband thinks the longer I go, the harder it will be and he’s right but, I also feel like that’s a pass straight to hell. I’m so terrified. This also feels like God heard my prayers and cries and yearning and gave this child to me and who am I to immediately “get rid of” them? That feels monstrous.

please, please pray for this child to be unaffected or a female. Please. I need so many prayers. I am so scared and hurting when I should be joyous.

Prayers needed for this pregnancy and a genetic disease. This is long but, please😭

I recently found out I was pregnant again, a total shock by the way! I am currently 4w5d and while I’m over the moon I’m also terrified. I carry a mutation for a “milder” form of muscular dystrophy that can range anywhere from being unaffected your entire life needing nothing at all to needing a wheelchair eventually at some point in adulthood anywhere from early adulthood to well later into life or even never and just needing other mobility devices. This disease ONLY affects males so any male I have has a 50% chance of having the deletion. I currently have two amazing, perfect sons who are thus far, by the grace of God completely unaffected and thanks to God science is finally finding medications that work at stopping progression for those who do start to get weakness (fingers crossed that continues on into a full cure!!)

I have been longing so badly for another child and longing for a daughter/sister for my boys. To the point that it hurts. I have been trying to talk to my husband about ivf which can help avoid any further children being affected. My husband has been on the fence and really leaning towards not wanting a third (his feelings are fair) but, I however know I will never feel complete without them. we are very fortunate in all aspects and can afford it. I absolutely LONG for another. To a point that it’s painful.

I told my husband yesterday about the baby because I needed a few days to sit with it alone. Now let me preface by saying he is an AMAZING Man, a loving husband, the best father, and a great provider. It sounded like he was leaning towards me terminating immediately due to the carrier status I have. He said this very gently but, that was the sounds of it. I understand not wanting to pass this on to another child knowingly (we didn’t know this at all until my youngest was born and we did random newborn screening) and I understand that BUT, there is still a 75% chance this baby wouldn’t have it at all and I just can’t. I want them so badly and I love this baby SO much already. If they are a female, they have a 50% chance of being a carrier (would never be effected since it only effects males) or a 50% chance of not being a carrier at all. If it’s a male they have a 50/50 shot of either having the deletion too or not at all. To me, that’s a huge chance they won’t.He is on the side that we had two boys and they did both end up with the deletion and while I completely understand that, I don’t think I’d ever been able to forgive myself and not think of the “what if it was a girl? What if it was a male that did not have the deletion?” For the rest of my life. I want to do an early gender test in a week and a half and then, if it is a male do the NIPT at 9 weeks pregnant that will specifically be able to search for this deletion then if they do have it, go from there. My husband thinks the longer I go, the harder it will be and he’s right but, I also feel like that’s a pass straight to hell. I’m so terrified. This also feels like God heard my prayers and cries and yearning and gave this child to me and who am I to immediately “get rid of” them? That feels monstrous. I have longed for them, cried to God in my car many hours, and this just feels like it was thrown into my lap.

please, please pray for this child to be unaffected or a female. Please. I need so many prayers. I am so scared and hurting when I should be joyous.

Just as the title says, I’m sending myself absolutely spiraling over this which may seem crazy. My hcg was 55 at 10/11 dpo, 112 at late in the day 12/13 dpo, then 477 at 8am 15/16 dpo (30 hour doubling time)
So I know that’s reassuring but, I am seriously spiraling over not having sore breasts. With my 1 year old my breasts were already super sore at this point (though I was on progesterone suppositories for my own peace of mind due to PCOS so not sure if that played a part) and I think they were with my 4 year old too but, I truly can’t remember. I usually have pretty easy first trimesters especially when it comes to nausea but, for some reason this is making me lose my mind lol
Anyone else not have any sore breasts?

Currently my symptoms are an awful metallic taste in my mouth (on par with my usual first symptom haha), vivid dreams, night sweats, and frequent urination. very, very occasional mild cramping

Just as the title says, I’m sending myself absolutely spiraling over this which may seem crazy. My hcg was 55 at 10/11 dpo, 112 at late in the day 12/13 dpo, then 477 at 8am 15/16 dpo (30 hour doubling time)
So I know that’s reassuring but, I am seriously spiraling over not having sore breasts. With my 1 year old my breasts were already super sore at this point (though I was on progesterone suppositories for my own peace of mind due to PCOS so not sure if that played a part) and I think they were with my 4 year old too but, I truly can’t remember. I usually have pretty easy first trimesters especially when it comes to nausea but, for some reason this is making me lose my mind lol
Anyone else not have any sore breasts?

Currently my symptoms are an awful metallic taste in my mouth (on par with my usual first symptom haha), vivid dreams, night sweats, and frequent urination. very, very occasional mild cramping

I know this is well within the “72 hours” mark but, it doesn’t feel great that it only went from 55 to 112 in 51.5 hours giving it a doubling time of 50.2 hours or 94% in 48 hours. My past successful pregnancies easily doubled around 30/35 ish hours early on for a while. Seems like it’s bad news being that slow with numbers that low.

I’m pretty sure I’m having a chemical. Call it a gut feeling or intuition or whatever but, I can’t shake it. My hcg from 11 dpo to 13 dpo had a 50.5 hour doubling time (55 then 112 at 51.5 hours apart) and I *know* people are going to say “oh but, that’s normal. It’s up to 72 hours.” However, in my case of successful pregnancies it always more than doubled every 48 until we stopped testing around 2000. My tests are sort of stalling a bit (15 dpo now) and by this point I had some sore breasts with both of my 2 children, this one? Nothing. I’ll get my hcg rechecked tomorrow again but, my gut just says it’s not viable. From the second I get a positive with this one at 9dpo I could not shake the feeling of this one being an early loss. No idea why. I know that probably sounds stupid but, my gut is usually always right. I can usually tell the difference between my anxiety and my intuition. Again, I realize that sounds so silly.
If this does end up being a chemical I kind of just wish it would hurry up and do its thing then so I can get back to trying again. I feel awful saying that. It makes me feel traitorous like I’m saying I don’t want my child, which very much so isn’t the case. I just needed somewhere to vent because even though I’ve had a gut feeling from the start, I’m still very much so feeling quite sad.

So I’m supposed to be exactly 4 weeks today. I had my beta done Wednesday and Friday. On Wednesday at 12pm it was 55 and one Friday at 330 it just came back as 112. I *know* that’s technically within normal but, it just seems slow to me. I think that’s a doubling time of 51ish hours? However, I’ve always been told by doctors that early on when numbers are lower it usually doubles even quicker.

With my 1 and 4 year old my numbers more than doubled every 48 hours (closer to tripled or 2.5x) well into the thousands. I guess I’ve just kind of resigned myself to believing this will be a chemical. :/

So I’m supposed to be exactly 4 weeks today. I had my beta done Wednesday and Friday. On Wednesday at 12pm it was 55 and one Friday at 330 it just came back as 112. I *know* that’s technically within normal but, it just seems slow to me. I think that’s a doubling time of 51ish hours? However, I’ve always been told by doctors that early on when numbers are lower it usually doubles even quicker.
With my 1 and 4 year old my numbers more than doubled every 48 hours well into the thousands. I guess I’ve just kind of resigned myself to believing this will be a chemical. :/