Realizing an alter may be an introject
I’ve dabbled in this thread a few times before, everyones very nice and understanding and I really like sharing my experiences! I am still undiagnosed, but currently working with my therapist towards a diagnosis. I am currently starting a new job though and I had to stop my sessions momentarily while getting used to my new schedule!
But I’ve been rewatching Attack on Titan and I’m like, slowly coming to the realizations that one of my alters might be an introject of Eren… it’s kind of wild but, this specific alter’s name is Devan. He is basically me when I was 14-16 years old. (I know OSDD-1A isn’t a clinical term but I believe thats how I experience it so I’m placing it here so no one gets confused about how my alter is still me in a way)
Anyways! When I was 14-16, or when Devan was the host… idk shits weird, I had an insane attachment to Eren as a character. I saw him and I saw myself, I would refer to Eren as myself and talk in first person when talking about Eren. I chalked this up to “kinning” but I’m kind of starting to realize I never experienced anything like that again, even though I still do dabble into fictionkin shenanigans.
Anyways, since I’ve been rewatching AOT I feel like Devan is more here with me. When Eren on screen I feel like theres someone in my head saying “Thats me bro” but its not ME saying that lmfao. I am incredibly amnesic and struggle REALLY badly to even attempt to communicate with anybody and everything Im talking about is just.. hunches I guess? Anyways. I just thought it was interesting
