A lot of kids from my undergrad apply to med school and a lot of them end up at really great MD schools. I am glad to have gotten accepted to a DO school that’s local and that will hopefully lead me to having close to no debt, however I still feel quite sad and sometimes jealous that I won’t go to a school people recognize or even be an MD. I’m angry that I didn’t try harder or that I made some mistake that resulted in the cycle going the way it did. I hate feeling this way because it’s preventing me from getting excited about starting school and being proud of what I do accomplish. I just feel sad and angry and every time I imagined getting in to med school I imagined it to be more exciting than it was. I also am upset I even feel this way because if one of my classmates did and spoke about it I would feel even worse. I just can’t stop thinking about what I should have done differently or comparing myself to my classmates going to other schools.
Edit: i am just no rereading this and realizing how annoying first world problems this sounds so I apologize
Edit 2: I feel bad about this because I am in no way wanting to contribute to the idea that DO schools are worse than MD or even less desirable. I had an MD invite to a school out of state and in all likelihood would still have chosen to go to my in state school if given an acceptance to avoid taking on debt. I think I just feel very disillusioned about the application process as a whole and am resentful about the way other people/applicants view DO schools. I think given we will take the same board exams upholding this idea including myself is wasteful and unproductive. Tbh I think many of the negative feelings expressed in my post are wasteful and unproductive.