u/AutomaticElevator164

i gained >! 3kg !< in >! 5 days !< from eating so much more and i am freaking the fuck out. i can’t even go back to restricting because it’ll just make the subjective binges worse (episodes where i eat more than i allow myself to initially (highest cal count maybe >! 1200 !< in one setting) and i can see the noticeable gain on my arms :(

has anyone gained weight relatively quickly too? it’s so hard being in recovery because restricting is no longer an option.

just two weeks ago i was struggling to stop restriction then BAM! hunger kicked in and my cravings intensified into relentless food thoughts.

not sure if i can keep myself safe because i have these thoughts on my mind and idk if i should walk to the nearest hospital’s a&e because i don’t want to inconvenience people

did anyone else get worse sleep after attempting recovery? like i’m waking up at early hours hungry, i keep going to the toilet to pee in the middle of the night, the bloating and fullness makes it hard to fall asleep… not anti-recovery just frustrated that things are not getting better but feeling more out of control