I finished off my last vape and I’m at work for the night with no money to buy another one. Any tips for staying sane through the night ? I plan to keep trying to quit after tonight too.
I haven’t smoked a cigarette since march with no intention of starting again so I’m going good on that note.
28 M, Mixed Ethnicity
I feel no emotion but I continue to do what I need to do daily, I work 5 days out the week full time and customers often tell me I need to smile more. My mom tells me I could smile when I take pictures, and my friends say I look evil. it’s not that I’m mad or sad or anything I just don’t have any emotions I feel; nothing triggers the emotions to hit me anymore. I quit doing recreational substances after being diagnosed with schizophrenia and am on an injection every couple months for that (antipsychotics) I hardly drink and have been abstinent from sexual activity for over 6 years (by choice) I just don’t feel I’m in the same space mentally to do the things I used to do and find enjoyment in them. I still try and make music, I still turn on the game system every once in a while. I’m nice to people (often times people are rude back) I stay positive in the worst of situations, I’m the person that sends positivity to the people around me when they’re talking about wanting to unalive themselves or how they can’t continue when they’re get depressed or angry. I don’t get depressed or angry anymore, no anxiety; just nothing. In my teens I was very depressed and anxious (for reasons that are out of my control and I ruled off to be small things) it’s like I completely changed as a person because when I was running the streets and doing substances I looked happy more than I do nowand was far from it. now I’m not necessarily happy but more appreciative of who I am but can hardly form a smile. When I was a child I was very angry and often had outbursts, I feel like I was evil then. My life changed In 2020 for the better before everything started changing for the worst, I was in the best physical condition I had ever been in, I was eating right, work was going good (until I said enough is enough of what I had to deal with and quit one day after a meeting) I was in nature more trying to find my peace. I had two more jobs after that and got fired from both, one because there’s rules between relatives working in the same building, and another they wouldn’t give me a reason. I spent 3 years gaming and writing music , doing art and going on walking adventures (20+ miles there and then walking back). I feel like a normal individual but people make me feel as if I’m not normal, I don’t carry myself as if I’m greater than anybody, in fact I was insecure with myself (looks, weight, how I sound when I talk) pretty much my entire childhood. I’ve always been an introvert for the most part but mostly got over it. I’ve since started working again (been at my current job for 2 years) even tried a hard job (roofing) and lasted about 3 weeks before I got fired because I wasn’t the best at it. I no longer let things get me down or bother me but my facial expression has a different story it tells. So with that said , this is my story, does anybody relate or feel anything close to this?
28 M, Mixed Ethnicity
I feel no emotion but I continue to do what I need to do daily, I work 5 days out the week full time and customers often tell me I need to smile more. My mom tells me I could smile when I take pictures, and my friends say I look evil. it’s not that I’m mad or sad or anything I just don’t have any emotions I feel; nothing triggers the emotions to hit me anymore. I quit doing recreational substances after being diagnosed with schizophrenia and am on an injection every couple months for that (antipsychotics) I hardly drink and have been abstinent from sexual activity for over 6 years (by choice) I just don’t feel I’m in the same space mentally to do the things I used to do and find enjoyment in them. I still try and make music, I still turn on the game system every once in a while. I’m nice to people (often times people are rude back) I stay positive in the worst of situations, I’m the person that sends positivity to the people around me when they’re talking about wanting to unalive themselves or how they can’t continue when they’re get depressed or angry. I don’t get depressed or angry anymore, no anxiety; just nothing. In my teens I was very depressed and anxious (for reasons that are out of my control and I ruled off to be small things) it’s like I completely changed as a person because when I was running the streets and doing substances I looked happy more than I do nowand was far from it. now I’m not necessarily happy but more appreciative of who I am but can hardly form a smile. When I was a child I was very angry and often had outbursts, I feel like I was evil then. My life changed In 2020 for the better before everything started changing for the worst, I was in the best physical condition I had ever been in, I was eating right, work was going good (until I said enough is enough of what I had to deal with and quit one day after a meeting) I was in nature more trying to find my peace. I had two more jobs after that and got fired from both, one because there’s rules between relatives working in the same building, and another they wouldn’t give me a reason. I spent 3 years gaming and writing music , doing art and going on walking adventures (20+ miles there and then walking back). I feel like a normal individual but people make me feel as if I’m not normal, I don’t carry myself as if I’m greater than anybody, in fact I was insecure with myself (looks, weight, how I sound when I talk) pretty much my entire childhood. I’ve always been an introvert for the most part but mostly got over it. I’ve since started working again (been at my current job for 2 years) even tried a hard job (roofing) and lasted about 3 weeks before I got fired because I wasn’t the best at it. I no longer let things get me down or bother me but my facial expression has a different story it tells. So with that said , this is my story, does anybody relate or feel anything close to this?