u/Autumn_Fire

Two therapists didn't help and one of them said I was such a tough case she couldn't help and dropped me. I can't go into in patient because it would last far longer than what my job would allow me to have leave so I'm just totally stuck. I can't do it on my own and god knows I've really tried. Genuine attempts but what it's taught me is that this is a disorder, not a habit (so to speak). You don't just drop it when it suits you.

I just don't know what to do at this point. I'm caught between a rock and a hard place and it feels like help only comes with an ER bed which is obviously best avoided. I'm really stuck. Really, really stuck and even though it isn't too late to turn this all around, it's so psychologically damaging to recover that I can't do it without a professional leading me through it.