u/Avaxo20

As the title says, I have suffered secondary infertility since my son’s birth 11 years ago (basically 12 as he’s 12 on Monday) . I’ve never came close to being pregnant again until Monday. I realised I had been having cramps for a few days and thought my period was coming, I usually have 28-32 day cycles and was cd30 and decided to do a test on a whim, it never crossed my mind it would be positive so imagine my shock when it was, my lines got darker on Tuesday and Wednesday but yesterday and today’s are slightly lighter. The cramp I was having is also gone. It feels like a sick joke. I’m 4 weeks 5 days and just waiting for the bleeding to start.

Has anyone else been through this or similar. I don’t know what to do next.

I’ve literally only known I’m pregnant for 2 days and I’m worried sick already.

Bit of backstory I had my son 12 years ago and have suffered secondary infertility ever since. I was about to start fertility testing with my current partner of 4.5 years and noticed i had been getting cramp since 4-5 days ago, my cycles are 28-32 days but they tend to come mostly on cd 28, it was cd 30 so I took a test not expecting anything, but a second line popped up, since then I’ve done multiple tests checking for progression (there is some) but I’m still worried sick, I had a chemical pregnancy before I had my son and I can’t stop thinking about it happening again, or just anything bad happening in general.

It’s weird because even though we were going for fertility testing I had already sort of came to terms with the fact I probably wouldn’t have more kids, to then randomly fall pregnant naturally before our testing, honestly my heads in a spin.

I’m trying to keep busy to avoid taking multiple pregnancy tests a day, my partners so excited and while I am, I’m not matching his excitement and he’s probably picking up on it, but it’s because I’m so scared somethings going to get wrong and it’s going to get taken away.

I want to download a pregnancy app etc but at the same time I don’t incase I’m jinxing things.

I also think I’m in a bit of denial about it.

My son (11) has autism and I’m starting to think he also has ocd. There wasn’t anything noticeable until he got a sudden fear of a house fire happening, for several months he wouldn’t allow any electronics in his room and still won’t allow a lightbulb. But he will allow the tv and Xbox in his room while he plays it but then have to take it out. So he is slowly making improvements with that.

The big issue we are having is he constantly apologises, even for things he doesn’t need to be sorry for. I must hear him say he’s sorry over 50 times day. I’ve asked him why and he just says he feels bad so he says sorry and he feels the need to do it.

He also started trying to visualise a black screen in his mind and only wants to hear the sounds he wants to hear but thoughts/external sounds make it difficult for him and he gets considerably upset/stressed when he can’t do it. He also has to touch random things around the house while he does it and stare at things including me while he does it. He’s also over the past few weeks started doing a really loud repeated sigh while doing it, which has to be over 100 sighs a day. I’ve asked him why he does it and he just says he feels the need.

I would say the last 2 things I wrote about started around the time he started secondary school in September and are increasing as time has passed.

I don’t think he does these things at school either but he masks heavily at school.

Has anyone experienced anything like this??

I had my routine smear in February/march I can’t remember which, anyways it came back negative but positive for hpv (I’ve had hpv for years now) so I had to colposcopy, when I was there I had a biopsy.

Then I got a letter on the nhs app and the dr commented she seen cin 1 in her opinion. I’ve had my results back and it came back cin2, now I have to wait for them to have a meeting to assess my results.

I’ve had cin 1 (in 2015) and cin 2 (2016) I never had these removed they went away by themselves. However the issue is I don’t think I actually had a follow up colposcopy appointment to confirm they had gone I think I had the biopsy results, said we’d wait and see and then my follow up smear was negative and that was that. Could I have had cin 2 all this time? I went back to 3 yearly smears after that but I think I’ve only had 1 in that time with covid etc.

I also am likely to have IgA Nephropathy which I’m led to believe could be the reason I struggle to clear hpv.

Do you think they will go ahead and just remove them this time, or can I ask that they do??