Celebrity crush
This is dumb and I know it so nobody needs to tell me. I don’t genuinely feel like something is wrong with my relationship and my boyfriend always tells me how beautiful and stunning he thinks I am. Megan Fox was the root of my teenage insecurities. Literally hated myself for not looking like her and knowing I would not look like her as an adult. Transformers came up in conversation and my boyfriend said he thought she was so hot back then and remembered her boobs bouncing a lot. He was laughing about it. I just didn’t say anything bc I didn’t know what to say and didn’t want to admit I felt insecure but he realized anyways and said “I’m sorry. I’ll stop” I do not think he meant to hurt my feelings at all. Ive never told him that bc I do not share that information often as it triggers a lot of shame for me because I felt like I should have known better than to think I could ever look like a stylized and photoshopped version of a celebrity but it didn’t stop the insecurity from forming. That comment brought me right back to being 14-19 and feeling deeply insecure. It kind of always stayed an insecurity and it had gotten easy to ignore until that comment happened.