u/Aydicheckerin

I‘m a guitarist wanting to cover the acoustic version of Caesar on a TV screen but I‘ve found it quite difficult to figure out the chords.
There’s currently (as far as I‘m aware) only 2 videos of them playing the acoustic version on YouTube. Unfortunately for me, Emily‘s fretboard isn’t always fully visible which has lead to me missing some chords here and there (I‘m not advanced enough to figure them out purely by hearing like other guitarists can).
I‘m well aware that there’s already chord transcriptions online but they all require a capo on the 2nd fret since the song contains a lot of barre chords. But I don’t want to use a capo.

Just wanted to ask if anyone perhaps had a video of them playing the acoustic version where Emily‘s guitar/fretboard is fully visible

(I‘ll probably ask on a guitar subreddit if I can’t figure it out but I wanted to on my own first)

Title sums it up nicely, I have an open wound that’s I think Dermis/Styro? And there’s a really dark red spot inside it. Started bleeding very heavily but it stopped after 10-15 mins, now it’s just a little (still keeping pressure on tho). Just wanna know if I’m dying or sum, I heard veins usually carry dark red blood so yea

I think a lot of people can relate to the title and honestly I just need to get this off of my chest.
Our school has an exchange program and an exchange student joined us in class a few days ago. My friend, whom I sit with, has also struggled with SH and has much more visible scars than me. The exchange guy sat in front of us and when he turned around he was just staring at her arms and she had to explain that she struggled with SH in the past.
He, understandably , didn’t notice my scars at all. I have some small, flat, faded scars on my lower arms which you wouldn’t notice at all unless you intentionally looked and less faded, bigger, more visible ones on my upper arms which are definitely noticeable but were covered that day.
That interaction made me feel so fucking terrible though and made me want to relapse. I‘ve always felt insecure about my scars (especially compared to my friend) because they’re so small compared to other peoples.
I feel like I need to keep cutting and keep going deeper until my scars can truly represent the struggles I‘ve had to deal with. I‘ve had this issue of comparing myself to others ever since I started with SH and I think it’s what’s been keeping me from fully recovering. Every time I relapse I think of my friend‘s scars and I think I need to cut more, widen the wound, make it worse so the scar is even gnarlier.
I wish I could get better but at the same time I wish I could get worse and worse and worse so that people would look at me with the same look they have when they look at my friend. I love her dearly but still I experience this sick jealousy, I envy her scars and wish they were my own. When that thought crosses my mind I feel so disgusting and like a horrible friend.
I know how incredibly unhealthy this constant comparison is and this want to get sicker but I don’t know what to do about it, how to stop it or how to accept that no matter the condition of my scars, what I went through was and still is horrible.