Compared to all of these posts I'm reading my life is a piece of cake but I still manage to fuck it up. I'm turning 18 in June and I haven't no smoked weed (cartridges) since I was 12/13. Whe I was 12 I found my sisters pen ano used to get high everyday and when I turned 15 I had to get it myselt cuz my sister moved and I went down an even worse path doing every drug | seen just to feel something. And all I want to do is feel something I don't remember shit from my life and I feel numb I try to quit but I alway find away to convince myself to fuck it andsmoke and I haven't gone a day without smoking I even told my parents and siblings and then the next day I don't care and I go back to hiding it and smoking. I have no motivation for school | remember whe | went to grade 9 l had my life planned (I'm gunna work until I have have enough money to own a farm in Florida and live at peace with my family) but I seem to not follow anything that will get me their for example never study when I need to and I keep getting second chances like I failed advanced tunctions and I got to private school it and I still don't study. I don't focus on anything my mind seems like it's in 10 places at once I can't be calm and focus. I know the first step is to just quit and bevluve but I try try try and it's been so long since I was able to live without resorting to having to smoke. And where I was a normal person that could spend time wit my family and not be stuck trying to get my fix when I'm done talking. I don't know man I don't know.
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Compared to all of these posts I'm reading my life is a piece of cake but I still manage to tuck it up. I'm turning 18 in June and I haven't no smoked weed (cartridges) since I was 12/13. Whe I was 12 I found my sisters pen ano used to get high everyday and when I turned 15 I had to get it myselt cuz my sister moved and I went down an even worse path doing every drug | seen just to feel something. And all I want to do is feel something I don't remember shit from my life and I feel numb I try to quit but I alway find away to convince myself to fuck it andsmoke and I haven't gone a day without smoking I even told my parents and siblings and then the next day I don't care and I go back to hiding it and smoking. I have no motivation for school | remember whe | went to grade 9 l had my life planned (I'm gunna work until I have have enough money to own a farm in Florida and live at peace with my family) but I seem to not follow anything that will get me their for example never study when I need to and I keep getting second chances like I failed advanced tunctions and I got to private school it and I still don't study. I don't focus on anything my mind seems like it's in 10 places at once I can't be calm and focus. I know the first step is to just quit and bevluve but I try try try and it's been so long since I was able to live without resorting to having to smoke. And where I was a normal person that could spend time wit my family and not be stuck trying to get my fix when I'm done talking. I don't know man I don't know.