u/BOUTTEBOY6

God…where do I even begin, yk? Okay so I am 24M, currently on a trip to the lake here where I live…again. Had a conversation with my mom and just to hear her say she’s aggravated because we are miserable…it breaks my heart.

For context, my dad is in the picture but has always kind of done his own thing. He provides for us all and good lord I am so thankful for what he’s done. But on the other side of that coin, family kind of feels like second rate to him. The only vacations we go on are to this stupid lake, because he likes it here. And it’s like I’m thankful for having a nice camp here and the sacrifices it TOOK to get to this point…but it’s like cmon. This vacation is just us doing a bunch of upkeep and work just to go on the water for an hour. In the blistering sun. Idk, maybe I’m not making sense but the point of it all: we are miserable. My dad and my mom kinda seem like it’s push and pull all the time, me and my brother are drifting apart, I’m just so tired and bored all the damn time, we feel trapped in the house we live in (like not in a horrible way but just…nothing to do). I’m afraid of the possibilities of what’s to come, because I don’t want to lose my family. But we all are just…so fed up with one another. Like with today they all got aggravated with me for calling it quits for swimming because A.) it was hot as hell and B.) the water felt HORRIBLE. And it’s like…why would I subject myself to being miserable, if I’m done I’m done.

I’m sorry again if none of this is getting to the point…frankly it’s a lot and it’s been a lot for years. I’m hoping for the day I move out but until that point hits I guess…I mean what can I do? What are ways to help my family? What are ways to make the changes? What can I do?