multiple people have said to me what ever happened was very illegal, my question is why do authority figures act like its all normal? actually though what the fuck? to me thats the worst part of it all makes me feel like im not even a human being. anyone else know the answer to this.
One of my main perps would randomly project hate to everyone but it was aimed at me clearly but anyways I noticed when I wasnt fitting into said "role" theyd just keep forcing it. if I started to realize what was going on. I was labeled as dangerous or a meth addict. when it was actually my ptsd. when it wasn't landing I got labeled as dangerous. and a potential shooter until I had no choice and confessed my worst trauma wound and suddenly they backed off. made me realize most people do see life like its a movie or tv show. its sad really. suddenly everything was a huge sign of whatever confirmation bias. I dyed my hair black? yeah now im turning into a n-zi. its insane.
my main perp looking back was a loserrr. oh my god. anyone else noticed that? like even when it was all happening I found it weird not scary. when he could tell it wasnt working he would just try to get in my face and when I jumped, of course I did anyone would how is that even fair?? also is it common for the perps to be almost erratic? like my main perp almost seemed psychotic. the most disturbing part wasn't the overt mirroring, or where he would try to sync and sleep when I did. but just how weird people can actually get. it wasnt typical mocking. I saw him more as a pet. I hate how they frame it as they know something about you that you don't, Like even though I know it's a projection I still ponder if it's correct. anyone else? honestly when it was at its worst it felt like I was inside a cult and everyone could sense I was trying to escape.
I did end up calling out what was happening publicly. they really do think if they unsettle you enough you'll stfu. or admire them. its sick. they want you to submit so badly to think it's all normal. I basically said how you're projecting and a stalker. he couldn't really deny it so instead my perp just self sabotaged even more. I was speaking for the room too cuz they want you to think everyone is on it. when in reality other people may be also as confused. The worst part for me is def the a ocd loops in on constantly have to remind myself its over.