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I was ritually abused by a terrible, sadistic cult as a child:

It has been nearly decades since my severe, and protracted childhood trauma finally ended. While the shock, and the emotional pain of this part of my past is not as intense as it once was, and while I know what I suffered, was suffered by others as well, I feel alone in surviving my experiences. I have met 2 people in my entire life who also endured such horrific, unendurable trauma. They were managing to survive also, and I hope they still are. I wanted to stay in contact so we could learn from each other how to do more than survive, but neither unfortunate souls were able to do so. The reasons are complex, and all I can say is life just got in the way.

I hope to meet other survivors, perhaps able, and willing to share their experiences, and maybe together, we can possibly learn to do more than survive. I am alone in dealing with my trauma, but clearly there are others who managed to make it, despite all the cards stacked against every one of us.

I invite anyone, and everyone who reads what I’ve written here, to please feel free to contact me in this group. We are all soldiers drafted in a war, and we fight for our lives without allies. Let us join hands, comrades in arms, so we can learn from each other how we all have survived.

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u/Ike1025 — 2 days ago

Have you encountered obscure cults online? How did that go, what were they like?

I mean like, so obscure your not even sure the cult is real type deal, I'm curious if anyone has encountered such an oddity, things not really known by most except those who have encountered them personally. If you feel safe with sharing, I'd like to hear about your experiences. If you don't want to speak publicly about it but are okay with sharing, my DMs should be open.

Please know I seek to hear all experiences, both those who merely ran into cult members and little more, and those who got fully indoctrinated (and have hopefully escaped since)

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u/CorruptedPixelzOffic — 3 days ago

Did you get over your crush or try to get them out?

live in a major city, I left the church 2 years ago having been in te church for 1 year. I occasionally see members preaching even 30 minutes from the church location. I hadva crush on a lady but the church doesn't permit guys from talking to women inside, so I never had much opportunity to talk to her. But recently I saw her preaching with a member in a location I frequently go by and it was the first time I had a conversation with her. She even remembered me. But I was explaining to her why I left between the guys trying to someone control me and the love bombing, not to mention censoring outside information. What is interesting is despite her being in the church for over 3 years I dont think she is fully gone mentally unlike most members. She just need a bit of reasoning. I know she is devoted given the amount of time spent but it still bothers me seeing her that way. I would even consider going back to try and get her out but those people genuinely irritate me with fake love bs. Problem is I don't even know how long i could tolerate it.

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u/Own_Pea_3191 — 4 days ago
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Has anyone found themselves drawn to a "new" religion...

Has anyone found themselves drawn to a "new" religion that they haven't grown up with? I say this as someone who was conceived and born to parents who met inside a global cult.

I don't know if I have been dipping my toes into different institutions as a process of elimination this whole time. Every time I get past a certain point, I experience intense cognitive dissonance because I crave the order and discipline from an external source, but it always comes down to this: I find myself unable to accept God as a higher power. I don't think that I actually want to worship God. At the same time, I find that the term atheist doesn't quite align with what I feel myself to be.

It's not exactly straightforward with all the psychological chaos. But what I have noticed is that there isn't really an allowance for those who suffer from religious trauma. It tends to be: find a different expression for your higher power. Or, just have faith. Even a tiny bit.

I recently converted to a new religion and found myself really questioning my choices. On the surface, it felt like it made sense for cultural and ancestral reasons. Again, it boiled down to this: God, as an entity, is a deal breaker for me. I was also experiencing waves of mania, so it seemed that I wasn't exactly " mentally sober" when I made that choice.

Does anyone else have any such experiences?

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u/GiftenZeeM9 — 10 days ago

is it common for ex cult survivors to have heavy symbolic speech?

I grew up in a Children Of God environment, im 21 now still trying to process it all. most of the abuse happened before the age of 12. anyways people knew I was in a cult before I did disturbing how that works. People at school noticed how id speak symbolically all the time, and my teachers. theyd be unsettled. I remember "flirty fishing" to my teacher having 0 idea I thought I was just being nice. It's fucked up. He was scared. anyone else?

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u/Background-Job4241 — 10 days ago
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The strange case of a church singing its own name (True Jesus Church)

Disclaimer: This is just my personal story about my time in the True Jesus Church (TJC). I’m not making legal claims. The song belongs to the composer and I’m only talking about it as part of my experience.

Before I get into my experience, here’s the song I’m talking about: True Jesus Church 真耶穌教會 (TJC). The lyrics are shown in the video in both English and traditional Chinese. Please don’t harass or target the video uploader.

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What is the True Jesus Church

The TJC originated in China in 1917 and has since expanded across Asia, Africa, Europe, Oceania, and the Americas. Because its roots are tied to East and Southeast Asian cultural norms, many branches - regardless of location - emphasize hierarchy, obedience, and communal conformity. These cultural elements blend with doctrine, creating an environment where tradition and authority reinforce one another.

TJC teaches that it is the restored church of God in the end times - the sole institution through which salvation is found. This belief shapes its identity and produces a high‑control culture. Members are taught that outsiders are spiritually dangerous or deceived, and leaving is framed as moral failure or temptation. These explanations rarely make logical sense, but they effectively discourage questioning and maintain loyalty.

I name the church directly because my experience didn’t happen in isolation. It was shaped by shared doctrines, expectations, and culture across the organization. Not every branch is identical, but the worldview is consistent - and that worldview shaped what happened to me.

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A song I didn't question. Until I left.

Around 11–15 years ago, I learned a new song at church called True Jesus Church.” At the time, nothing about it seemed unusual. In fact, I felt quite proud that our church had a song named after itself. Singing it made me feel chosen and distinct from other Christians. It strengthened the idea that being part of TJC was not just a belief but an identity.

The song spread quickly. Choirs performed it at major events, youth groups sang it at retreats, and branches worldwide added it to their worship routines. It became familiar and emotionally charged.

Only after leaving did I realize how unusual it is for a church to sing a song about itself. Most Christian denominations don’t do this (I don't think any do but correct me if I'm wrong). I’ve never heard the Roman Catholic Church, Jehovah’s Witnesses, or even the Latter‑day Saints sing hymns praising their own institution. Christian worship music typically centers on Jesus, grace, devotion, or repentance - not the organization’s name.

TJC’s choice to do so reflects its self‑image and its need to reinforce exclusivity through every possible channel, including music.

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How the song reinforces exclusivity

The name “True Jesus Church” already asserts that the institution alone represents the true faith. When paired with melody and repetition, that claim becomes emotionally anchored.

Music works through rhythm, familiarity, and emotional resonance. Repeating the church’s name embeds it into your sense of self. It starts feeling like absolute truth.

In high‑control environments, music reinforces belonging, discourages doubt, and strengthens group identity. This song is one of the church’s most effective tools for shaping how members view themselves and the outside world.

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Branding disguised as worship

Once I stepped outside the system, the nature of the song became obvious:
it isn’t just worship, it’s really a promo anthem.

The lyrics portray the church as:

  • divinely established
  • divinely protected
  • the only place where truth exists
  • the only place where salvation is complete

The song repeatedly calls TJC “the one and only church of God,” “the holy bride of Christ,” and even “the heavenly new Jerusalem.” These are biblical titles normally reserved for heaven or the universal body of believers, not a single denomination. Hearing this as a member made the church feel divinely chosen and made me feel spiritually superior without realizing it.

These aren’t theological statements about God, they’re claims about the institution. When I was inside, singing this felt like devotion. In hindsight, it was loyalty to the church itself. The song blurs the line between worship and institutional messaging, presenting allegiance to the organization as a spiritual act.

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Why it felt normal inside TJC

Inside the environment, the unusual becomes ordinary. I didn’t question why I was singing the church’s name. I didn’t notice how it shaped my thinking or discouraged curiosity. The song fit neatly into a broader culture that constantly reinforced TJC’s uniqueness.

Teachings, sermons, testimonies, and everyday language all repeat the idea that TJC alone holds the truth. Members hear this message from the pulpit, at fellowships, during theological training courses, through church camps, and through peers and leaders. The song is simply the most obvious expression of that message - a musical version of the church’s core claim.

Immersed in that environment, I didn’t realize how deeply it affected me. It narrowed my worldview and made other churches seem spiritually lacking. The song felt normal because everything around it supported the same narrative.

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Looking back at TJC

The “True Jesus Church” song is more than a hymn. It’s branding wrapped in worship language - a really subtle but powerful reinforcement of exclusivity. Leaving the church gave me a new perspective. I began to see how something that felt ordinary had quietly shaped me.

What once felt normal now feels revealing. The song shows how the church influenced not only what I believed, but who I believed myself to be.

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Read my other posts about my True Jesus Church experiences

u/Large_Drawer3515 — 8 days ago

What to do with someone who has been brainwashed

About 7 years ago, my brother told me that he'd been approached by a certain group. He said that he wasn't interested in joining this group.

HOWEVER, around the same time, he had become obsessed with certain things, and is still CONSUMED by certain things that should not, and do not, occupy the minds of most people to the extent that they concern him every waking moment of his existence.

Additionally, he has been relentlessly trying to force his beliefs on me, and tells me that I have psychological impediments to accepting the "truth,"when I tell him that I don't care to discuss such things. He thinks it's his misison in life to get me to believe as he does. I have told him umpteen times, that I simply do not care one way or the other and he cannot accept.it. I feel like I'm being harassed and I need a restraining order.

He talks about nothing else with other people, even strangers. He reads about nothing else. He looks at videos and sends me myriad videos all day long! At this point, I think he belongs in a mental instutioon, not for his beliefs, but for the obsession that the beliefs have created.

I truly think that he was brainwashed by a cult and I have no idea what to do about it.

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u/Beanie-2018 — 10 days ago

Was anyone else in a “creative/artist” environment that turned into coercive control?

Hi, I’m writing this because I’ve been struggling for years to find anyone who truly understands the kind of situation I went through. In my early 20s, when I was emotionally very vulnerable, I became involved with an older artist who acted as a mentor figure.

Through that connection, I entered a small artistic community that, at the time, felt meaningful and unique. Over time, however, the situation radically shifted. What initially felt like guidance and support became something much more controlling. There was abuse and violence, and there were no clear boundaries between work, personal life, and loyalty. The structure revolved strongly around one central person, and over time my independence — and even my connections to friends and family — were gradually eroded.

Looking back, the dynamic resembles what people describe as coercive control or a “cult-like” environment — although it wasn’t religious, but built around art, identity, and belonging.

I was in that situation for over 15 years. The hardest part for me now is not only what happened, but what came after. I am no longer in contact with the people from that environment, and attempts to reconnect have not worked at all. It feels like there is no shared space to process what happened, and that sometimes makes me question my own experience. So I wanted to ask: Has anyone else been in a similar situation, especially in a creative or artistic context?

And if so, how have you made sense of it afterwards — especially if you don’t have contact with others who were involved? Thank you for reading.

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u/ShapePrudent7445 — 11 days ago

The Growing Problem of Christian Cults Targeting Young People in Brisbane

There seems to be a growing problem in Brisbane. That few people are talking about. More and more cult-like Christian communities seem to be developing and especially targeting younger people.

As someone who has been to a few of these cult-like places in Brisbane, I thought I'd put together a small list of cults and cult-like groups to avoid for anyone thinking of joining a church. This is obviously not a comprehensive list.

ICC Brisbane (Yeronga)

- An offshoot of the Melbourne ICC

- High pressure group that isolates members from family and pressures members into giving a high percentage of their salary to the church (https://www.reddit.com/r/CasualMelbourne/comments/1jr51tk/toxic_melbourne_church_of_christ_icoc/)

- Currently running 'Engage Brisbane' meetups on Friday nights

Christ Embassy Brisbane (Acacia Rdige)

- Spread a lot of conspiracies about vaccines, covid, 5G and more, spread by both their head pastor and Brisbane church (https://www.theguardian.com/media/2021/oct/06/christian-tv-channel-fined-by-ofcom-over-covid-conspiracy-theories)

- High Pressure tactics used to get people to donate and isolate members from their families

Sincheonji Brisbane

- Cult led by Lee Man Hee who teaches that he is the "Promised Pastor" and a chosen messenger of Jesus Christ on Earth". He was arrested two days ago.

- High pressure group that targets primarily university students, pressures them to leave their studies, families, donate money to the chuch and worship Lee Man Hee

World Mission Society Church of God

- Also a cult trying to recruit university students

- Tries to get its followers to believe that Ahn Sahng-hong, a South Korean man was the second coming of Christ

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u/Basic_Experience_599 — 11 days ago

Questions for who had to cut off their entire past

I “survived” a UK based cult (closest description) which has caused me almost unimaginable levels of suffering and pain.

I’ve realised that to protect myself, I have to disown my entire family and virtually every “friend” I’ve ever had.

I can imagine there are people here in similar situations.

What do you tell people about your past? How did you begin forming new connections?

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u/LeipopoStonnett — 13 days ago
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Coercive Control in Christian Marriages Dissertation

The University of Salford Manchester invites you to take part in a Master’s Dissertation research study evaluating the effects of conservative Christian ‘male headship’ theology on coercive control in marriages. There is a gap in the available research examining the connection between non-physical coercive control and the teachings within this movement. This study aims to address this gap to contribute to the body of research examining coercive control in intimate partner relationships in the Christian environment.

The survey is comprised of four questionnaires and will take between 20 and 30 minutes to complete.

Participants are eligible for the study if they are female, 18+, have belonged to a group that teaches ‘male headship’ theology, were married while in the group, and have since left that group, at least six months ago. If a participant is currently suffering from an acute or severe untreated mental health condition, they are strongly advised not to take part. If you have any questions or concerns, please contact the researcher or dissertation supervisor at the email addresses below.

Researcher: Derek Johnson (mailto:D.M.Johnson2@edu.salford.ac.uk)

Dissertation Supervisor: Rod Dubrow-Marshall (mailto:R.Dubrow-Marshall@salford.ac.uk).

Link to participate: https://app.onlinesurveys.jisc.ac.uk/s/salford/evaluating-the-effects-of-conservative-christian-male-headship-

u/Valuable-Author-9281 — 14 days ago