its exactly what it sounds like
i wrote this while listening to music and fading off as i let my mind wander and put together things from the jumble of a mess that is my conscious
more will be added to this doc as I write more and I will keep y'all updated
also, how do I set a user flair?
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1_Taqug-GVTpK30ZdGkwLZQzsQG34OUoJozx6eoStjHI/edit?tab=t.0
ᴡᴇ sᴘᴇɴᴅ ᴏᴜʀ ʏᴇᴀʀs sᴇᴀʀᴄʜɪɴɢ ꜰᴏʀ ᴍᴇᴀɴɪɴɢ ᴀs ᴛʜᴏᴜɢʜ ᴛʜᴇ sᴇᴀʀᴄʜ ɪᴛsᴇʟꜰ ᴡᴇʀᴇ ɴᴏᴛ ᴘʀᴏᴏꜰ ᴛʜᴀᴛ sᴏᴍᴇᴛʜɪɴɢ ᴡɪᴛʜɪɴ ᴜs ɪs ᴡᴏʀᴛʜ sᴀᴠɪɴɢ.
ɪ ᴀᴍ ᴀʟɪᴠᴇ, ꜰᴏʀ ᴛʜᴇ ʜɪsᴛᴏʀʏ ᴏꜰ ᴍᴀɴ ᴋɴᴏᴡs ɴᴏ ʟɪᴍɪᴛ sᴀᴠᴇ ᴛʜᴇ ʙʀᴇᴀᴅᴛʜ ᴏꜰ ɪᴛs ᴏᴡɴ ᴡᴏɴᴅᴇʀ, ᴀɴᴅ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ɪᴛ ᴡᴏɴᴅᴇʀs ᴍᴏsᴛ ɪs ᴡʜᴀᴛ ɪᴛ ᴍᴇᴀɴs ᴛᴏ ᴇxɪsᴛ ᴀɴᴅ ᴛᴏ ʟɪᴠᴇ.
I'm working on a couple of writing pieces right now and would love to talk about them with some people and get some feedback/critiques!
I have a google doc with the main thing I'm working on called "awaiting silence" that I am thinking as of the big story/confessional of my life / intended to be my magnum opus.
I'm also working on a book of a percy jackson inspired/elden ring inspired series that I don't exactly have a name for as well.
My discord is thatguyjax0322, my dms on here are open as well if you'd prefer to stay here!
I will say - awaiting silence is very personal and can be maybe triggering in some ways so mild discretion is advised because it is a very raw piece of writing that I am currently working on.
I also have a couple of other philosophical pieces I have written/am writing right now that I would love criticism on as well.
So add me on discord or shoot me a dm request on here and I will get to you as soon as possible!
(Critiquing/discussing below is okay as well!)
Awaiting Silence: https://docs.google.com/document/d/10gbfpaPYUlxJopzvLSLnAKKun4QeGbfCcv2Mxc-Xskw/edit?tab=t.0
Philosophical Writing Dump: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1RYopCOI9wSUBLtb9yRME2Btyktk5S5v1Z8bfYH86Roc/edit?tab=t.0
Book 1 of Series: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1jURj_lLchV_DupZm7FAciuC6fWuMnK3fFANhjK3EmMo/edit?tab=t.0#heading=h.gvgzf7kt2gzo
Book 1 Outline: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1Fb1zSi7ZKY55myFumIutDpkymt-cnTRtTOpdqvlwAx4/edit?tab=t.0#heading=h.rlyytmrvgmh
Thanks and God bless <3
I have insta, discord, this, and snap incase you want more details or want to PM.
I'm M17. I've been in boarding school since freshman year. There is... so. much. fucking. stress.
I hate this all. All of my sisters are super successful (oldest upenn then vandy, middle georgetown then william and mary, youngest a sophomore and the best art school in the country). I feel like theres just so much to live up to. I've watched friends commit right in front of me. I've had no one to talk to besides a very close couple of friends and my girlfriend but my girlfriend is on her own struggle bus and may be emancipated by her parents and I don't want to keep adding to her stress. And she keeps coming to me with all these problems despite the fact that she told me she was going to try and be more positive since she hates the doom and gloom. Of course I told her its ok but it's all her life seems to be lately and theres only so much I can do from 1600+ miles away. Obviously I'm grateful for them but I can't keep just adding on to them but I can't keep bottling my emotions up.
I'm so tired. I just want to relax. I can barely get out of bed without almost collapsing to my knees. I have diagnosed ADHD and I struggle to focus and with impulse control and I keep getting steamrolled with higher and higher expectations just because I perform somewhat well academically.I still have another year of HS and I don't even know if I'm going to be able to get into the colleges I'd like to get into and if I don't go to college my parents will disown me.
I kept getting sick for a while but thankfully that stopped but I was throwing up for MONTHS and my parents refused to believe me and its by some miracle I got better.
I wasn't able to get back to campus on time ford its finals week and theres not going to be any food until tomorrow in the dining hall and I'm starving and I can't focus on studying.
I just need someone/people to talk to. Someone/people I can lean on just a little bit until I can stand on my own two feet again.
Thank you and God bless everyone. <3
I have insta, discord, this, and snap incase you want more details or want to PM.
I'm M17. I've been in boarding school since freshman year. There is... so. much. fucking. stress.
I hate this all. All of my sisters are super successful (oldest upenn then vandy, middle georgetown then william and mary, youngest a sophomore and the best art school in the country). I feel like theres just so much to live up to. I've watched friends commit right in front of me. I've had no one to talk to besides a very close couple of friends and my girlfriend but my girlfriend is on her own struggle bus and may be emancipated by her parents and I don't want to keep adding to her stress. And she keeps coming to me with all these problems despite the fact that she told me she was going to try and be more positive since she hates the doom and gloom. Of course I told her its ok but it's all her life seems to be lately and theres only so much I can do from 1600+ miles away. Obviously I'm grateful for them but I can't keep just adding on to them but I can't keep bottling my emotions up.
I'm so tired. I just want to relax. I can barely get out of bed without almost collapsing to my knees. I have diagnosed ADHD and I struggle to focus and with impulse control and I keep getting steamrolled with higher and higher expectations just because I perform somewhat well academically.I still have another year of HS and I don't even know if I'm going to be able to get into the colleges I'd like to get into and if I don't go to college my parents will disown me.
I kept getting sick for a while but thankfully that stopped but I was throwing up for MONTHS and my parents refused to believe me and its by some miracle I got better.
I wasn't able to get back to campus on time ford its finals week and theres not going to be any food until tomorrow in the dining hall and I'm starving and I can't focus on studying.
I just need someone/people to talk to. Someone/people I can lean on just a little bit until I can stand on my own two feet again.
Thank you and God bless everyone. <3