M36 Struggling with asking for a divorce
I'm going to try my best to type this down as coherently as possible.
Me(M36) and Wife (F38) together for 9 years of which 2y married.
My wife has received the diagnosis of Autism at an adult age about +-1y ago and it has changed our lives completely.
It has become a shield & a crutch to just not do things. Doesnt want to talk about anything, the autism.
Our sexlife has completely vanished.
Our childwish dissapeared as she doesnt want to raise a child with her condition.
Menial housework is all shoved to me as it is to exhausting for her.
In the meantime she refuses to look into any option of mental care to better cope with her situation.
And after rereading my rant, I can feel the bottled up frustration that my life has changed so much without having any say in it
I am overwhelmed with feelings of feeling fully drained, lost all purpose or common goals. And I feel lost.
Has anyone experienced this or can guide me in any way how I move forward?
Edit: Also wanted to add I feel like I cant leave her as she is out of work due to a burnout at the time, and I feel like i'd be abandoning her and any hope she has for a better path.