u/BallayaIRL

I am a intern at a not so well known PBC.The work culture is good and flexible. I will join as a full time employee soon. Along with me another bunch of people to got a offer letter.

One of them. With whom I worked for few months. Is not that good at many levels.

Not good at communication skills. Not good at technical skills. Not good at understanding things beyond the low level code. In which too he is not good.

He (even me to some extent) is delivering things because of AI Tool adoption at our company.

At this point I have sympathy for him. I and some people in my team rather not speak with him and give tasks. Do the tasks ourselves.

Our current manager being great person suggested him for a full-time role. Now, we will be working with a different manager in our full time roles.

I just wonder what will happen to these such people in a company. That too in present times.

Nenu normal guy who looks wise had no chance with any girl. I too didnt care cuz i know i suck.
She, from a general perspective lo not a special girl or so. BUT, for me felt like a perfect peice in a puzzle.

We knew each other for multiple years. But, very very recenty ne we started came to same city. Almost 4 months varaku baga hangout ayyam. both were very excited and were fine. Obviously, we were frnds and naku kuda clarity undi nenu edava veshalu vesthe naake bokka ani.

Initial days, she just told every single thing about her self. and was feeling a satisfaction in life. no adrenaline or dopamine. just calming happiness.

Later, koncham she reduced the amt she used to speak. but we did hangout. obviously, after initial days matladaniki antha undaka povachu.

I knew i had feelings. But, i am fully aware that this will mess me up. so decided to never speak up.

Last 3 months ga, her social media presence has shrinked so much. today its ZERO. no where to be seen.
Last 2 months ga, we never hanged out. barely texted. nenu msg chesina prathi sari out of despiration to hangout. sometimes ghosted, sometimes said no.

initially we used to meet randomly, unplanned coincidence very very frequently. But, last 2 months never saw her outside. (maybe last meeting theory is true)

My pain is:

nenu em yedava pani cheyale, hints ivvale, nothing. why am i cutoff from her life out of no where. I badly wanted a closure.

She will be leaving the city in few weeks. should try for a one last meet (i wanna say goodbye) but naaku doubt ye.

i know she will leave the city. i wanted to confess and then say goodbye. but, ippudu minimum message ki kuda scope ledu.

One concern i have:

She since many months ISCKON velthondhi and few months ga the ISCKON devotion has been very high. i have negitive opinions about the organisation. should this be even my concern? or my issue is different from this?