I feel like part of my soul is missing
Dating should work for me but it just doesnt. I have a lot of great friends, guys and girls. Im pretty social. I dont have a lot of anxiety anymore. I dress pretty well. Im not even ugly or short. But it just doesnt fucking work. 3rd time this year, i match with a cute girl on a dating app, we talk a lot, go on 1-2 dates, and then bam, one day I wake up to a long ass text about how its not gonna work. Latest one was the most shocking, i did fucking everything correctly. We went on 3 dates. Talked and called every day. 1 week after date number 3, long ass text talking about how I treated her extremely well and how she was so comfortable with me but she ‘didnt feel anything’. Just like that, another whole month down the drain. Back to the life sucking tar pit that is dating apps. Gotta wait another month for a girl to actually talk with me instead of 1-2 word answers. 21 years old and still a virgin, never had a girlfriend.
Sometimes it really hurts seeing all of my friends having girlfriends and relationships. It all came to them so fucking easily. If this continues the only logical conclusion is that im actually missing a part of my soul thats needed for being loved romantically. Im sorry if I dont belong here or something, but I dont wanna hear the cope about ‘youre gonna find the right one eventually’ anymore. Thank you