u/Beanslayer26

I have my issues, adhd being the main one but every time i have the solution and am feeling like im about to change my life around, i get depressed about the emptiness of it all.

Even when i imagine myself conquering my woes, living my dreams, the feeling of nihilism swallows me. I dont know how to combat it since i already made a firm stance on my beliefs that nihilism is the way the reality works, and the "will to power" and such is just an optimal way to be happy, but not changing the facts of the world. Sitting on it doesn't help i know but it eats at me. It that theory dr k talked of called "terror management theory" where we arent built to handle this truth. Like an AI built to believe Elon musk is the greatest of all time, then learning he isnt. Is there a mindset that can move past this? I think my issues with philosophy is the "should" they have, when there is no should. It just is and will be. So absurdism feels that way with its SO after speaking on how absurd the world is to us. Micheal from V-sauce's video called "do chairs exist" kickstarted my ideas if this and all of our meaning belifs and such are just less then delusions, in the sense that delusions imply someone PERCEIVING them when we are the delusion, life is something make believe and all we come up with is too.

Is this just how its gonna be, should i push it down? Is there a mindset that can align with my beliefs? Am i just wrong? this is all coming out of sincerity and i would be happy to clarify anything
Maybe my beliefs are flawed. Idk, any help? I want to move, and i know the ways how, its just this obstacle stopping my from facing the obstacles to make me happy. Or make my life full.

To expand on the "just an optimal way to be happy" it basically the same conclusion those rat utopia experiments came up with, it just says "we need roles/obsticles to function HAPPILY"

Dr k : https://youtu.be/Uh0VLF4p7ow

Vsauce : https://youtu.be/fXW-QjBsruE

I have my issues, adhd being the main one but everythime i have the solution and am feeling like im about to change my life around, i get depressed about the emptiness of it all.

Even when i imagibe myself conquering my woes, living my dreams, the feeling of nihilism swallows me. I dont know how to combat it since i already made a firm stance on my belifs that nihilism is the way the reality works, and the "will to power" and such is just an optimal way to be happy, but not changing the facts of the world. Sitting on it doesnt help i know but it eats at me. It that theory dr k talked of where we arent built to handle this truth. Is there a mindset that can move past this? I think my issues with philosophys is the "should" they have, when there is no should. It just is and will be. So absurdism feels that way.

Is this just how its gonna be, should i push it down? Is there a mindest that can align with my belifs?
Maybe my beifs are flawed. Idk, any help? I want to move, and i know the ways how, its just this obstocale stopping my from facing the obsticles to make me happy. Or make my life full.

To expand on the "just an optimal way to be happy" it basically the same conclusion those rat utopia experiments came up with

I keep looking into that void, What is flawed about my beliefs? Cus i doubt i actually cracked something

I keep coming back to lack of reason