Is this normal?
I am 8 months post partum and currently breastfeeding my baby. I had the typical ‘baby blues’ at 8 days post partum which lasted a few days but then I would say my mood has been pretty good until about three weeks ago. Three weeks ago I’m not sure what happened but I just feel like I ‘crashed’ emotionally and felt incredible brain fog, anxiety, intrusive thoughts and low mood and what felt like complete apathy towards everything. This lasted a week and has gotten mostly better except for my mood and I am currently feeling very disconnected emotionally from my bub which is breaking my heart. I know I love him so much but I am finding it hard to feel that towards him - l used to feel such joy when he smiled or laughed but now I feel just emotionally blunted.
I have seen my GP and she believes I may have depression. I have organised some psychology appointments and I already take an SSRI for anxiety but this may be adjusted in the future.
Has anyone else experienced this?!? I hate this feeling as I am normally a very happy, joyful person. Is it sleep deprivation or hormones or maybe a combo of both?? I have so much guilt that I am missing out on so much because I just don’t feel as present or engaged 😢