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Does anyone struggle with POCD? Does it also feel like you don’t know who you are anymore or if you can just suddenly become pedo ?
It’s so hard, intrusive thoughts and images, groinal responses and else makes it so real and it is almost impossible to still believe you are a good person.
I am trying to find infos about real pedo to make sure i am not like them, when there is a child on social media, i make sure to analyse if I feel anything.
This is horrible.
And to add to the spiral, it feels like you are a real pedo that’s trying to hide behind POCD or maybe some pedos don’t want to be pedos and so then, what differenciate them from POCD ?
Does anyone relate ?

Thanks a lot

Does anyone struggle with POCD? Does it also feel like you don’t know who you are anymore or if you can just suddenly become pedo ?
It’s so hard, intrusive thoughts and images, groinal responses and else makes it so real and it is almost impossible to still believe you are a good person.
I am trying to find infos about real pedo to make sure i am not like them, when there is a child on social media, i make sure to analyse if I feel anything.
This is horrible.
And to add to the spiral, it feels like you are a real pedo that’s trying to hide behind POCD or maybe some pedos don’t want to be pedos and so then, what differenciate them from POCD ?
Does anyone relate ?

Thanks a lot

Hi everyone, I have OCD (diagnosed) and this week’s theme is moral/identity, basically my OCD uses past mistakes to convince me I’m a bad person.

I wanted to ask if anyone else experiences this specific thing: when you read in the news about someone who got convicted for something that relates to your OCD theme (even if what they did is 100x worse than anything you’ve ever done), do you find yourself almost feeling like you want to defend them? Like this weird sense of identification with them, even though in real life you would never actually defend them or agree with what they did?

It feels like my OCD is building a bridge between me and that person, as if their conviction feels like a threat to me personally. And it completely goes against my actual values. Like for example if someone asks you a question « do you feel like X is wrong? » you do know it is wrong but you don’t connect with the answer because you don’t believe yourself. I know it can be confusing but i just try to find the words.

Is this something others experience? Is it an OCD symptom ? Does it have a specific name? I’m going to bring it up with my therapist but I’d love to hear if this resonates with anyone.

Thanks a lot !
Hoping everyone is trying to cope as much as they can.

Hello! I am sorry if this has been asked before but I was hoping for some advices or even reassurance.
I got enrolled not long ago, as a bilingual only, I take a lot of time to read through instructions as I don’t want to mess any task I am doing.
So I am doing some R&R tasks and the chessboard for example but I am never too sure what to edit, what not to edit, I found it a little confusing at first, which is why I am really taking my time reading everything in the instructions. But I always get a little fear that I am not doing the task correctly.
Also, I don’t feel comfortable asking outside this Reddit since we have to follow confidentiality (I assume I could not ask a family member for help understanding everything) so I am doing it here.
What do you do exactly during an R&R task ? What is expected ? And what elements would make you rate “awesome job” ?
Once again, I am sorry if it was asked before, I am just trying to do my best and not take this opportunity for granted. I assume with time it gets easier to understand and be familiar but at first, can be overwhelming.
Thank you.
Have a lovely day :)