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Also i posted this on my YouTube channel lmao https://youtu.be/4g1PGDP6kvI?si=OWb8zZ33NCrXLZZt

Every single time I walk around, to, and from school it’s so hot I just wear short sleeves. They see my scars. People stare, people notice. But it’s not a quirky thing when the ugly weird girl does it. It’s just expected, not a single person is shocked or worried.

I am so envious of people who are taken seriously. I see it happen with my own eyes. When I do it, it’s pathetic in a funny way. When the teacher points it out infront of everyone, kids laugh at me and stare while smiling. I don’t like it here. I still do it just not on my arms. I want to start doing it on my arms again, I guess I just wish that maybe if I had fresher scars or deeper scars then people might give me some fucking pity. I have a feeling I will never get pity or sympathy, maybe I just want my own pity. I don’t know.