Just joined this community
I started drinking at the age of 15 (father problems) I always blamed my drinking habits on that. I’m 27 now have finally fixed my relationship with my father. But I ve come to realize I’m not happy I’ve made a lot of money I’ve had the perfect family. I’ve had the perfect life and I can’t help to self sabotage. im also going through a huge change I was living in Tampa FL for 20 years. But I self deported and now I’m living in Mexico. Luckily I don’t pay much bills because I live in a family home. I realize no matter what how lucky I am. Im so mentally exhausted pretending like everything is okay. But I’m not. I don’t wanna worry my mother with my dark thoughts and I don’t know what to do. Nothing in life brings me happiness. I don’t wanna gather a pitty party. I just want some outside opinions.