u/Beginning-Plenty-518

Hiiiii, I don't know much about manifesting but I'm losing my mind and I'd do anything for someone to guide me into getting this guy to ask me out

Background story, this really cute guy asked me out once and when we went on the date, I made myself seem more innocent than what I really am and I think that made him pull away a little because he doesn't wanna "ruin" me

Either way, we're sending each other reels rn and when I tried to ask him out he left me on seen on whatsapp (in his defence I was texting back at 7 am while he would text at 10pm)

SO WHAT DO I NEED TO DO TO GET HIM TO ASK ME OUT AGAAAINNN HELP

I dont know if that's just a me thing or a bpd thing or whatever, but I realised that I cannot live my life now ever since I broke up with my ex two years ago without having some other man to be attached to.

Not a single guy that I like has entered my life since then, yet I have gotten attached to all of them, I would draw boundaries and try to act normal and cool and fine but spend my whole day obsessing over a lick of attention, one time I spent the whole day writing in my notebook on work that "he's gonna text me back before 12" obsessively over a guy I genuinely found disgusting and I couldn't get over him until a new guy who's also terrible to me showed up in my life.

Now the problem here is that, right now I am talking to this guy who ghosted me last year all of a sudden and came back a year later with a sorry excuse of an explanation, before him I was finally away from all men and genuinely focused on myself, but I was so unbelievably bored with stability that when I saw his text suddenly I got excited.

The problem now lies with the fact that I can't stand him, I hate him with everything that I am when he texts and gives me attention, but when he's not and he's distant I lose my mind, he's all I can think about.. again I don't like him like that AT ALL, but I'm so attached to the attention he used to give me and the fact that he's losing interest again is making me lose my mind but I am trying so hard to stand my ground.

Idk if I am making sense I haven't slept all night because he left me on delivered for 4 hours and I thought he was asleep but then he posted an instant and then responded 5 hours later, so that like literally kept me up for two days

I just need help navigating my emotions, I need to work and I can't focus at all, I have his account restricted but it doesn't matter because I keep checking my requests