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hi, i’ve been struggling with b/p cycles for about 5 years now, and lately i’ve been relapsing hard, and noticed that my teeth had been looking more and more bad. it seems like every time i throw up, a little piece breaks off my teeth. it scares me so much, and i feel so frustrating that i keep doing it anyway!!! my tooth health has been deteriorating over time, but right now i feel like it’s getting bad, fast. and it’s not just my teeth, sometimes it’s really painful to breathe, and my stomach really hurts at times. i also feel hideous, like i ruined my face with this, i just want to hide away from the world. i hate this so much, i wish i never went down this path:(
i’m scared that this will kill me one day, but i’m also insanely terrified of going to the doctor or asking for help, i feel terribly ashamed.

i’m sitting on my bathroom floor, contemplating if i should throw up or not, but the urge to throw up is getting bigger. for years now, bulimia has been slowly ruining me. my teeth feel so fragile and are as yellow as a lemon, my face is always so puffy, i feel disgusting and ashamed. i’m currently sick. this is the second time that i made myself throw up so much that i gave myself a throat infection and a sickness as well. i’m pathetic. i know it’s bad and i’m ruining myself but i can’t take the feeling of food in my stomach, i can’t keep myself from throwing up😞

i don’t wish this on anyone