u/Beginning_Advice_193

I am 42. Recently, I have noticed a trend. I am finding myself attracted to younger men, 30+ to be exact. My current muse/ crush is 31 and ridiculously off the cards but after some assessment I realize that this seems to be the males I am most drawn to?

The few bits of info on this subject seem to indicate this is a need to “nurture” or “control” from women who do date younger men; I find both ideas high distasteful and not applicable. The idea of mothering anything other than this soon to depart 17 year old child makes me wanna gag 😭

I’ve never once considered dating anyone in this age group ( of anything I’ve dated men much older than me, when o was dating) but the last 2 years my loins are indicating a change in titillation. Sure I could indulge but there’s this underlying insecurity about the age gap or the possible longevity of such a relationship. I’ve heard other women my age share the same kinda shame over even the concept.

Part of me thinks I may be emotionally drawn to an age I never was allowed to be. My childhood was not a childhood, I’ve always been told the dreaded “ you’re so mature for your age” 😩 Would love to hear if anyone has any insight on the topic at hand including experiences, possible reasons for the draw, and those pesky feelings of unwarranted shame.

Just got a new mic, wanted the latest Shure MV7 but due to budget constraints got the MV6. I seem to have an issue with skipping in my recordings. From what I researched this may have a lot to do with my laptop. It’s older however since I can’t replace it for at least a couple of months I’ve been trying to adapt the settings. I have the latency to 200. I have the correct settings per all the material but still getting the skips. Anyone have any suggestions or experienced this cause I’m putting out good material I feel but the sound is can be choppy. I use Riverside for editing and even in the magic AI, which I have to put lower, doesn’t get rid of the small skips.

I noticed this during a recent outside my body observation, that when someone is talking my attention is focused on them, I can easily make eye contact and maintain it. I’m deeply engaged with what they are saying (and not). Yet when I myself start talking, I barely make eye contact, I’m usually looking away or up like I’m staring at my thoughts and plucking them out my brain to communicate but it does not seem to involve the other person. Sure I glance at them for comprehension purposes but overall it’s harder to look someone in the eye when my mind is ( I like this visual term) exploring the web. Is this common for any of you?

Edit: This is not referencing trying to recall information but a way in which we naturally communicate: looking up or away when expressing ourselves. Almost incapable of doing so (communicating) while staring into someone else’s eyes or directly at them.