Hopeless.. but cant give up
Im partially alive due to my parents being alive and i dont wanna leave them and i consider a sin to waste my life when i have the capacity to do something good in life. Im tired at how hopeless i feel.. i cant do anything productive.. and if i cant do anything productive i cant progress. I ve been crying nearly everyday for more than a year literally and i havent told anyone exactly.. who would believe anyway?
Im lonely tired. I've been excluded and avoided by my closest of friends, verbally abused by some and so much more. I regret my stupid past and it hurts to think abt how stupid i was. Whenever someone talk to me genuinely I get tears.. and whenever i see some kindness shown to me its the same.
Im yet to complete my studies but i cant focus.. seems like my brain is fried completely.
Once, I promised that i will do what i can to the society thats a part of things that keeps me alive. Faith that someone or something watches over us..