Everytime i wanna not be here anymore
Ever since i was a kid I've been given high expectations and been given blame for a lot of the issues from family as it kept going even when i was doing good for myself anything that happened to us was my fault. Its been a number of times where i wanted to kill myself because i can never make anyone proud and i just get told im a failure. Even now when the year before i had lost everything that would've helped me gone forward away from my family and i was stuck job hunting doing as much as i can and still being told its not enough from my dad who constantly threatens to divorce. To my mom who was about to drop me off at a homeless shelter. I was the problem for everything i guess. Now i really just want it to end. I just want peace from all of it.