u/Beneficial_Ostrich50

Ok, some may think I’m a total nut! Here it goes, I not sure if I exactly know what is meant by a spiritual awakening is? Am I experiencing it or am I not? If not what is going on?

Ok I got saved at 31, called myself a Christian, taught in a Christian school, did children’s ministry, attended 3 years of bible college. About a year ago I heard about the lost books of the bible. This threw me for a loop. If man gets to decide what goes in the bible and what does not, Then it can’t be the infallible Word of God. It’s been flawed the human hands. Then come all the other question…
Is Jesus the son of God, is hell real. I have had real life demonic experiences that I can’t deny. I’ve had real life experiences with God that I won’t deny. I don’t know what is real anymore

Ok, some may think I’m a total nut! Here it goes, I not sure if I exactly know what is meant by a spiritual awakening is? Am I experiencing it or am I not? If not what is going on?

Ok I got saved at 31, called myself a Christian, taught in a Christian school, did children’s ministry, attended 3 years of bible college. About a year ago I heard about the lost books of the bible. This threw me for a loop. If man gets to decide what goes in the bible and what does not, Then it can’t be the infallible Word of God. It’s been flawed the human hands. Then come all the other question…
Is Jesus the son of God, is hell real. I have had real life demonic experiences that I can’t deny. I’ve had real life experiences with God that I won’t deny. I don’t know what is real anymore.

Can someone help me or at least point me in the right direction? I can’t read my bible anymore. I’m just existing. I don’t know what I stand for anymore!

I recently started making content. I am 60 yo female and have never done anything like this before. I have several issues…I like to have a plan to follow and I’m mainly using AI for script and ideas.

I feel like I have no direction and my hooks are no good.

Goes anyone have any advice to get organized and have a plan and is using AI as my primary source for material a bad idea?