I was casually talking to a woman. We weren't official, nor did we go on a date, but we planned to November. We live 2 states away. She dumped me when I mentioned I have a crush on a colleague, but she was was talking to 2 other women in her state. She got angry at me for "rejecting" her, delighted that I wouldn't be my crush's type, and said I was wasting her time.
Am I wrong for being honest about my crush?
I'm a Scorpio Stellium (Sun, Moon, Venus, Pluto), I don't feel like a Scorpio. I haven't ruined anyone's life. I don't think I ever broke anyone's heart, but I've had my heart broken countless times. I've never got revenge on anyone, but when I did, I looked really foolish 🥴 I don't really think I'm alluring to anyone unless there is something really wrong with them, or they are but get over it really quick to be with someone else. Can definitely say that I've never had a lasting impact on anyone in a romantic or sexual sense. I'm basically a fraud. Any other Scorpios feel the same way?
I'm telling y'all because my friends are busy lol. I meet my crush on HER in April of this year. We only started talking more frequently in the summer and we hit it off well. I couldn't help but gain a crush on her because she's masc, artsy, cute, and loves my art. We would talk about how we could make plans to see each other (I live in Georgia, she lives in California).
But recently the vibe kinda shifted (I attribute some of it to my luteal phase) when I sent her a voice note explaining what inspires my art. See, I decided to send her a voice note bc in my mind I wanted to put on my "womanly charms" for her. She said she loved the voice note and also said she "was not expecting it." I didn't think much of it. I told her I'm glad she lived the voice note, then 10 hours later she sends me an inspirational post that said "never lose the drive you to pursue your passions no matter how hard it gets." Then I see her Instagram stories and she posts a photo of a dessert at a restaurant with the song Hold You by Gyptian.
I've been wigging out about. But I can't help but think she's probably seeing someone else. Not that I was expecting anyone from on the other side of the country to hold space for me, but I got attached. It has been a very long time (a couple of months, but 4 years before that) since I felt mutual interest in a person before. It's definitely my luteal phase, but I just feel like I can't attract people. I guess I'm not alluring enough because any time I manage to attract someone, it ends after a couple of months because they found someone else. I'm old news, they don't want my affection anymore. But I'm just ranting. Ugh
I'll never get a wife at this point lmao