u/Beneficial_Team_8921

Hi all, this started out as an SP manifestation but shortly after I messed with the 3D and it backfired, I said f*ck the sp f*ck everything external and have been completely focusing on myself and my self concept. Since I did that, I stopped getting triggered by the old story and the 3D but also something strange started happening:

I'd be just going about my day as normal, not thinking about him, and a random vision would pop up in my mind out of nowhere of him reaching out, crying for me, apologizing, saying "can we please talk / can I please see you", drunk texting... I'm also seeing him in my dreams now all of a sudden. Believe me when I say I've regulated my nervous system as much as I can, I've detached, I'm completely focused on my self concept and can feel it getting better and better every day. If I ever visualize something it's always about me, how I'm feeling successful, how the universe loves me, how I achieve great things, how I'm so amazing and irreplaceable. None of my conscious visualizations involve him.

These visions that I'm getting of him feel instant, they hit out of nowhere, I am not consciously creating them, they don't scare me or activate my nervous system at all, in fact I feel very calm and normal but I still think this whole thing is strange... has anyone else experienced this?

I got fed up with throwing away my energy into the void outside of me when all that matters is me because I am the creator of everything. I don't really know how so don't ask me, but I tapped back into the energy of my unshakeable undeniable self concept. I've done it before so it was about damn time for me to align with it again.

I was looking out the window and decided that a red car will park in the parking lot across from my building. Did I fully believe it? No, I was just messing around and didn't really care. I went outside 20 minutes later and there were two red cars parked next to each other. After that, I walked to my favorite fast food place and an ex worker who quit over a year ago was at the register. She recognized me and asked if I'm getting the usual (yes I was).

One of the regular guys at my gym showed up at the same time as me shortly after I wondered where he was as I hadn't seen him in a month.

I met another regular that I hadnt seen in a while in the street, where I least expected to see him.

One of my cactus plants looked like it was dying for a while and I just noticed that it grew and changed its shape a little.

People are suddenly reaching out to me more than before. Friends, family, colleagues. Experiencing a lot of synchronicities, seeing angel numbers, accidentally saying the same thing as others at the same time.

I have been affirming that I am irreplaceable, I am infinitely loved, adored and desired, everything has no choice but to work out in a perfect way for me, and everything is reflecting that. I have completely dropped all goals, specific manifestations, you name it, and only focusing on getting myself back in my perfect state where everything flows effortlessly. Calling something a "goal" implies that I don't have it and I'm simply not going to accept putting myself in a state of lack.

I just saw some movement in the 3D but I'm scared to share too many details over fear of him finding this post for some reason 😭 I could share via DM but all I can say is I got a text that was rather neutral and then we stumbled across each other. I don't know why I'm spiraling a bit now (like what if I'm misinterpreting things?) but trying to remain consistent and knowing that there is no other power but me and I'm creating everything that I experience. I'm also wondering what to do from here, keep detaching and focusing on myself, throw in some SP specific affirmations, or something else? Maybe I just need to f*cking breathe and not react so urgently but yeah I want to hear some opinions too.

Stay with me this is a positive post even though it starts out like this lmao, so for the past week I've been trying to manifest from a place of desperation. I just finished cooking dinner alone, sat down to eat but felt this lump in my throat again, like I was about to cry after a whole day of staying on top of my mental diet and beliefs. So I was like ok screw this, screw this pressure, heaviness, sadness, everything. Screw the spiraling, even. I allowed myself space to cry and process and get angry because you know what, it doesn't matter. I had a list of all the successful manifestations I've done on the table next to me that I wrote minutes prior to this, in hopes of motivating myself. Like I forgot who I was and the power and magnetism I have. And I was like "girl... seriously??!" then went to take a shower still crying and processing and imagined pulling all my power back to me. Like actually felt it. Pulled it away from everything that's making me disregulated and back into my body.

I then sat in my towel by the window and smoked a cigarette and literally noticed that a HUGE portion of this weight that I was carrying just... disappeared. I thought of him and it no longer felt like getting karate kicked in the chest. Even better, I naturally started visualizing him crying and begging for me, and me rejecting him. I remembered the times he actually did that when I manifested him in the beginning. I literally have no words to describe the surge of power, energy and confidence I felt after letting the anger and sadness out and detaching.

So yeah... I really don't know how this shift happened out of nowhere, I didn't force it, it just happened. But I feel like a brand new person and most of my doubts just disappeared. I really didn't want to detach but it just happened and as much as I don't want to admit it felt great 🤣

Hi all, let me start off by saying I'm not new to manifesting and what I'm manifesting right now is something I have manifested multiple times in the past. But there's obviously something I'm missing.

However, I can't help but notice the pattern: when I get a manifestation in the 3D, sooner or later I let everything go, the control, the positive thinking, etc. Idk if this makes sense. It's like I leave things on autopilot because there's nothing left to do, nothing to affirm, nothing to manifest. I guess what I'm doing is unintentionally giving free will to everything around me because I don't want to feel like a control freak because it's draining, but I guess there is a limiting belief that if I let go of control things will fall apart? I really don't know.

As you can imagine, things do fall apart at some point and I find myself back at square one, relearning everything about the law and finding it incredibly hard to tap back into my power even though I've done it over and over again in the past.

Current example: I previously manifested my SP through bad circumstances (distance, 3P) and of course everything played out perfectly as I was not accepting anything else. However, I did let go of control and did something that any other human being has done at some point in their lives and reacted badly to a situation which led to no contact. Even though I've been through this with other SPs and I always made it out so I know 100% it's possible, I'm still finding it extremely find to reclaim my power and the intrusive thoughts, bad hypothetical situations and spirals are honestly draining me. This is just an example but I've seen it happen with other manifestations too.

I really don't understand why I keep letting go of my power only to have to start from the bottom over and over again. Any help on this would be greatly appreciated.

I reacted to some negative circumstances because I was already spiraling and failing to see the positive signs and I feel like I screwed it all up. He's not responding to me now and I don't want to annoy him further but I also really want to make it work and apologize but I don't know what to do I feel like no matter what I affirm the circumstances are stronger than that and I've manifested many things before but I don't know why I can't find the strength now. Please help I'm so upset