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I feel as though apologizing once again for forgetting to update here (several times) would be disingenuous because it will definitely happen again 🤦‍♀️ my bad, guys.

But chapter 8 of my fic is up, finally. I'm so sorry it took forever, but I finished reading Hollow Boy and it was literally so beautiful and profound that I had an existential crisis about who the hell I even think I am imagining myself as a writer. It also somehow threw me into a mid-life identity crisis IRL which is a whole other story. Moving on.

- Mike & Will finally get real with each other

- Steve is probably the coolest friend ever

- Roadtrip

- The usual Party shenanigans

- Mike, Will, Dustin and Max are prob gonna wind up fired because somehow this started as Scoops Max&Mike and Surfer Boy Dustin&Will and turned into everyone just fucking off 99% of the time 🥴 Ah, to be young again.

As always:

-WillEl siblings

-Madwheeler friendship

-Platonic M11

-Background Henderhop&Lumax

-Holly and Max are besties

-Will is a mentor to Holly

-Byler are Robin's kids

Heads-up that next chap will be nsfw. I know some people aren't into that so I just wanted to warn in advance. I enjoy reading smut for the hell of it as much as the next guy, but i am not capable of writing it in that way so it's gonna be romance-y and gross, and plot relevant rather than gratuitous. Just how I'm built, unfortunately.

Hi friends! It's peaceful panda again.

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Just wanted to check in because wow, life has been life-ing lately, but wanted to pop in here quick to say I'm working on the carnival chapter (appreciate your suggestions btw!), and it should be up by Fri. Im sorry it's taking me sooo long, and appreciate you guys sticking with me 🫶

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It's been super fun to write and making me nostalgic in a bad way because why have I not been to a carnival literally in like years?! What in the world that needs to change this summer.

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Anyway, i love you so much, see you soon, byeee!

Hi. I've had HG 3x, 1 living child. My pregnancies were...awful. managed on home health w a picc line.

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My last pregnancy was in 2017. I thought the anxiety would get better with time but it clearly has not. It does not help that I get severe nausea with my pms. It is to the point I do not even want to have sex because of the crippling anxiety I get until my period arrives. I can not tolerate hormonal birth control. My husband has offered to have a vasectomy, but since there is a margin of error even with that, I know I will still worry.

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We had sex ONE time this month, for the first time in close to a year. Realistically, I know that we used a condom and were perfectly safe, it did not break etc. But I cannot shake the awful panic I feel while waiting for my period to arrive. The more anxious I get, the more nauseous I feel, hence a vicious cycle.

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Does anyone else have this issue? I feel so alone sometimes.

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