Was what I experienced abuse?
I remember my stepdad used to grab me by the arm and throw me in my room and jam the door with a towel. Sometimes, he'd twist my arm so hard it'd hurt. He wouldn't explain what I'd done wrong. It seemed completely random to me. He would never explain why he was angry. Its like a flip would switch on in his head and he'd lash out. Even my mom could never figure out when he'd blow up. Eventually I started disobeying on purpose as I felt like I was "getting back" at the adults. Even now, I frequently feel anger and suspicion towards authority figures.