u/Better_Driver9909

the post before got taken down so I explicitated I am NOT asking for a diagnosis

Genuinely I was just assuming based on my behaviour, but I could actually a mentally sane person:

-I hear and see things even when I’m alone (voices calling me in public or criticising me in private, yelling and screaming at m)

-I sometimes have pretty bad mood swings (yesterday in the gym I was doing a boxe training and I randomly got angry, even though no one was talking to me and after the boxing session my heart was pounding and I felt really bad)

-I sometimes have suicidal thought, but I just assume this is just an adolescent thing, but I think is worth mentioning

-I hate being in contact with people, especially when they are older than me.

-I always feel like I have no one to talk to, even when I am in a party or something like that

-I can’t concentrate good if I am not listening to music or drawing because of the voices

-even the slightest noise gives me a headache

-I got random ticks in my hand and my eyes

(I do NOT smoke, drink or do drugs of any sorts, but I reckon I should get myself an expert diagnosis asap)

I am the dude from the comic of the pt character. Since my schizo has started I started thinking about the fact that the world without me would be the same, just one person less large. I don’t think how many of yall can relate, but like I am not important to no one. I am fucking going on by playing silksong as life goal. One thing I will def add to my next batch is that I play hard games not only for the sake of the silence, but also for the fact that keeps me with a reason to live. Dunno if you get what I mean…