u/Better_Function_3101

Hi everyone,

Last night I experienced what I now realize was a nocturnal panic attack for the very first time..
I had either been asleep for a little bit or was about to fall asleep, when suddenly I woke myself up because I thought I had stopped breathing and wasn’t going to be able to breathe again. I sat up, coughed, and thought I was going to die for a little bit. I live in my van and was thinking about how I was alone and nobody could help me if something happened. I got in my front seat, opened the door, and let some fresh air in. My hands were shaking and my heart was racing. I calmed myself down and got back in bed, realizing I had just experienced a panic attack. However, I’ve never had one like this before. I thought if I went back to sleep it would happen again, but fortunately I was able to drift into a peaceful sleep lol.
It was probably the scariest thing I’ve experienced while sleeping. Does anyone else have experience with this? And if so, what do you do about it?

So my Captain (who’s incredibly cool) pulled me outside yesterday and told me I might not get my raise because I had eight redirects. He said the “ai might spit out a not-pass” even though the redirects were mostly a bunch of small things.
The only big thing was something I didn’t even do- a customer emailed corporate because she thought I made a joke that I did not make about something serious, and I had witnesses to prove I didn’t say it, and we all had to write statements. Yet it’s still counting against me?? How does that make sense? A couple other “redirects” were so petty and minute, and I feel betrayed by the mates that documented them (IE- “bringing too many stacks on the floor at a time” and instead of giving me a verbal warning, they went straight to my file. IE “sitting on the ledge of the cooler when stocking bottom shelf” and instead of just giving me a verbal warning THEY WENT STRAIGHT TO MY FILE.) And now because of a crazy customer and a bunch of petty “redirects”, my raise and livelihood are in jeopardy. It really makes me feel like the mates don’t have my back. I’ve been with the company for a while so it sucks seeing people are in a position of power throwing people under the bus like this. Nothing lowers my morale more than knowing there are mates that are watching for people to do something wrong so they can go straight to their files…