Ending Up in Emotionally Abusive/Neglectful Relationship being Raised by Abusive Parents can be Debilitating
I don't know where to go anymore from here. I feel defeated. Not only have my parents been cruel, but so has been the world. I ended up with an emotionally cruel person because I just had no idea what I was doing when it came to dating. He's changed now but the damage is done. I've developed some sort of personality disorder trying to cope with the chronic emotional abuse. It's been lifelong. I feel so out of it, emotionally unstable, and have little desire to live. I can't concentrate on my career because of all of it. It's just not fair the cards that some of us are dealt. I didn't even like this person at first but he managed to hook me and I just fell in love. With someone who didn't really care. It triggers everything and I cry almost everyday. Has anyone else been able to get out of this mess? Fix a personality disorder? I am financially fucked and am scared to leave, too. I have cut off my narc family and I think it's the only way I can move forward but this is incredibly difficult when a relationship has fucked me. They're fucking everywhere. How is it fair that some people end up in loving relationships after childhood abuse and others end up with another narc? This is so messed up. It's sick.