u/Big_Blueberry8020

Yesterday my brother (21) pushed and slammed me (26) on the ground 3 times. Just over a fan. He was switching it off but I said I'm cooking and I need it so stop troubling me. And I just said the amount of time you're wasting troubling me, you can just study for your upcoming cuet exam. (He has failed 12th twice, and this year result is awaited)

And he felt offended. So he came out of the room and pushed me hard. I didn't fall down. So he pushed again hard enough to slam me on the floor and everything I was holding fell down. Then I got back up and yelled why is he beating me. To which he came and pushed me hard again. Saying he'll choke me. When my parents were back he started acting up laughing, saying I'm over exaggerating things and blaming everything on me.

If he felt angry on what I said he should have replied verbally. He's really tall and fat. I'm lean girl. He can choke me or slap me to death... I know he's capable of doing that. The whole day I kept repeating that he should not have done what he did and apologise to me, and how unsafe I feel, etc. He didn't apologise.

Today too. I said I don't want to be in the same room as him. Because what if he gets angry for no reason and try to beat me. My dad got "irritated" with me today. And told me to stop repeating the same thing. And said it's because I keep saying he's a failure, (which I didn't I had just said the energy he's wasting bothering me he can use to study otherwise others will get ahead of him.)

I said I will never say anything to him anymore. Whatever happens to him is not my concern anymore. And I'll just focus on bettering my own life. The worst part is my parents not telling him it's wrong to hit a "female". There are no excuses for that. One day he'll hit his wife or mother or my dad (he actually hit him once in past)... My dad kept telling me whatever happened, wouldn't have happened if I just kept my mouth shut.

I have nothing to say to my parents or brother any more. If they feel it's my fault then I really don't want to live with them. I'm unemployed currently I hope I get a job as soon as possible. I'm thankful to God for showing this side of my family to me. I now want to stay far far away from them.

I having an anxiety attack right now and my hands are shaking even typing this. Maybe they're right... Maybe I'm the problem... I don't know.... I just keep thinking all these thoughts. I have no friends to share how I feel. So if you're reading this, I consider you as my friend. What do you think?

Yesterday my brother (21) pushed and slammed me (26) on the ground 3 times. Just over a fan. He was switching it off but I said I'm cooking and I need it so stop troubling me. And I just said the amount of time you're wasting troubling me, you can just study for your upcoming cuet exam. (He has failed 12th twice, and this year result is awaited)

And he felt offended. So he came out of the room and pushed me hard. I didn't fall down. So he pushed again hard enough to slam me on the floor and everything I was holding fell down. Then I got back up and yelled why is he beating me. To which he came and pushed me hard again. Saying he'll choke me.

If he felt angry on what I said he should have replied verbally. He's really tall and fat. I'm lean girl. He can choke me or slap me to death... I know he's capable of doing that. The whole day I kept repeating that he should not have done what he did and apologise to me, and how unsafe I feel, etc. He didn't apologise.

Today too. I said I don't want to be in the same room as him. Because what if he gets angry for no reason and try to beat me. My dad got "irritated" with me today. And told me to stop repeating the same thing. And said it's because I keep saying he's a failure, (which I didn't I had just said the energy he's wasting bothering me he can use to study otherwise others will get ahead of him.)

I said I will never say anything to him anymore. Whatever happens to him is not my concern anymore. And I'll just focus on bettering my own life. The worst part is my parents not telling him it's wrong to hit a "female". There are no excuses for that. One day he'll hit his wife or mother or my dad (he actually hit him once in past)... My dad kept telling me whatever happened, wouldn't have happened if I just kept my mouth shut.

I have nothing to say to my parents or brother any more. If they feel it's my fault then I really don't want to live with them. I'm unemployed currently I hope I get a job as soon as possible. I'm thankful to God for showing this side of my family to me. I now want to stay far far away from them.

I having an anxiety attack right now and my hands are shaking even typing this. Maybe they're right... Maybe I'm the problem... I don't know.... I just keep thinking all these thoughts. I have no friends to share my how I'm feeling or ask for emotional support. So if you're reading this, I consider you as my friend. What do you think?

Yesterday my brother (21) pushed and slammed me (26) on the ground 3 times. Just over a fan. He was switching it off but I said I'm cooking and I need it so stop troubling me. And I just said the amount of time you're wasting troubling me, you can just study for your upcoming cuet exam. (He has failed 12th twice, and this year result is awaited)

And he felt offended. So he came out of the room and pushed me hard. I didn't fall down. So he pushed again hard enough to slam me on the floor and everything I was holding fell down. Then I got back up and yelled why is he beating me. To which he came and pushed me hard again. Saying he'll choke me. When my parents were back he started acting up laughing, saying I'm over exaggerating things and blaming everything on me.

If he felt angry on what I said he should have replied verbally. He's really tall and fat. I'm lean girl. He can choke me or slap me to death... I know he's capable of doing that. The whole day I kept repeating that he should not have done what he did and apologise to me, and how unsafe I feel, etc. He didn't apologise.

Today too. I said I don't want to be in the same room as him. Because what if he gets angry for no reason and try to beat me. My dad got "irritated" with me today. And told me to stop repeating the same thing. And said it's because I keep saying he's a failure, (which I didn't I had just said the energy he's wasting bothering me he can use to study otherwise others will get ahead of him.)

I said I will never say anything to him anymore. Whatever happens to him is not my concern anymore. And I'll just focus on bettering my own life. The worst part is my parents not telling him it's wrong to hit a "female". There are no excuses for that. One day he'll hit his wife or mother or my dad (he actually hit him once in past)... My dad kept telling me whatever happened, wouldn't have happened if I just kept my mouth shut.

I have nothing to say to my parents or brother any more. If they feel it's my fault then I really don't want to live with them. I'm unemployed currently I hope I get a job as soon as possible. I'm thankful to God for showing this side of my family to me. I now want to stay far far away from them.

I having an anxiety attack right now and my hands are shaking even typing this. Maybe they're right... Maybe I'm the problem... I don't know.... I just keep thinking all these thoughts. I have no friends to share how I feel. So if you're reading this, I consider you as my friend. What do you think?