u/Big_Blueberry8020

Today I'm craving that someone would say words of encouragement to me... I know it's pathetic to ask for such a request. But honestly I'm so broken from inside. I wish i had someone in my life right now that would say - yes you can do it.

But i have no one. No friends. A toxic family (my parents and my brother) that wishes that bad things happen to me like my mom hopes someone r*p** me. My brother beats me and abuses me. My dad always blames me for everything. And wishes that I would fail in life and become homeless.

I want to leave this place. And I'm soon planning to leave. Everyday it's torture and disrespect. I can't describe how awful and dehumanising it is.

I want to join the police academy and I'm preparing for it. But my toxic family keeps dragging me down.... I wish i had someone to tell me that it will be okay...

Today I'm craving that someone would say words of encouragement to me... I know it's pathetic to ask for such a request. But honestly I'm so broken from inside. I wish i had someone in my life right now that would say - yes you can do it.

But i have no one. No friends. A toxic family (my parents and my brother) that wishes that bad things happen to me like my mom hopes someone r*p** me. My brother beats me and abuses me. My dad always blames me for everything. And wishes that I would fail in life and become homeless.

I want to leave this place. And I'm soon planning to leave. Everyday it's torture and disrespect. I can't describe how awful and dehumanising it is.

I want to join the police academy and I'm preparing for it. But my toxic family keeps dragging me down.... I wish i had someone to tell me that it will be okay...

Congtulations to everyone! We earned this win. But, it's not the end. We still have a long way to go.

Guys let's promise each other. 2029 me Modi government fir se nahi aani chahiye. The new education minister is appointed but already many people have no confidence in him because of his past work. Plus current home minister, finance minister, Nitin Gadkari jese ministers, etc.. bhi kaise kaise scams kar rahe hain hum sabko pta hai....

Abhi recently dekho, AI summit ke naam par India me data centres banaye jaa rahe hain. Jo ki America or Europe me logo ne protest karke band karwa diye. Because data centres ki wajah se, unke hisse ka pani 70% kam karke government data centers ko cool karne me use karne lagi.

Par yaha itni awareness nahi hai or indian citizens ko manipulate karna Modi government ke liye easy hai.. isiliye Adani ne bade bade companies se data centres banane ka fund le liya hai. Isse achievement ki trah btaya jaa raha hai godi media me.

Socho yeh companies profit apne saath lekar jayengi. Indian water resources or electricity use karenge. Or piche chorkar jayengi - Water pollution, soil pollution, or India ke bade bade forest area ki cutting. Ekk data centre me cooling ke liye har din lakhon litre drinking water use hota hai. Jise baad me rivers me baha diya jayega...

Data centers se koi fayda nahi hai janta ko. Fayda sirf Modi govt ka, Adani ka, or unn companies ka hoga. Kiske expense pe? Hamare expenses pe. Hamare tax ke peso pe.

Please aap khud bhi YouTube Google pr research karke dekhiye ki data centers ne dusre countries me logo ki life kaise barbaad kar di.

They don't care about environment, they don't care about inflation, or education, or development. They want us to be stuck in rat race of poverty, unemployed and fight for basic necessities so that they can continue with these big scams because no one would question them.

Yeh log desh ko bech rahe hain. Or bhi bhot sare scams ho rahe hain. Bhot lengthy ho jayega isiliye nahi likh rahi hoon...

Mai bas itna kehna chahti hoon. Iss party me sabhi ese hi Chor, ghotalebaaz, bade bade scams karne wale, not-so-educated ministers hi milenge. Kuch jyada expect mat karo modi cabinet ministers se.

Please I beg everyone, 2029 me don't give your vote to BJP. 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

Mine was when I lost many academic opportunities for 2 years because of personal issues.

I get bored/distracted easily. But whenever I play some light comedy series like friends or old disney shows as background noise. I strangely focus better for long hours this way. This I do only when I solve mathematics or make notes. I need silence when I'm memorizing though.

Maybe I have ADHD, idk ....

I cannot focus. And get bored/distracted easily. But so I play some light comedy series like friends or old disney shows as background noise. I strangely focus better for long hours this way. This is only when I solve mathematics or make notes. I need silence when I'm memorizing though.

Maybe I have ADHD, idk ....

Yesterday my brother (21) pushed and slammed me (26) on the ground 3 times. Just over a fan. He was switching it off but I said I'm cooking and I need it so stop troubling me. And I just said the amount of time you're wasting troubling me, you can just study for your upcoming cuet exam. (He has failed 12th twice, and this year result is awaited)

And he felt offended. So he came out of the room and pushed me hard. I didn't fall down. So he pushed again hard enough to slam me on the floor and everything I was holding fell down. Then I got back up and yelled why is he beating me. To which he came and pushed me hard again. Saying he'll choke me. When my parents were back he started acting up laughing, saying I'm over exaggerating things and blaming everything on me.

If he felt angry on what I said he should have replied verbally. He's really tall and fat. I'm lean girl. He can choke me or slap me to death... I know he's capable of doing that. The whole day I kept repeating that he should not have done what he did and apologise to me, and how unsafe I feel, etc. He didn't apologise.

Today too. I said I don't want to be in the same room as him. Because what if he gets angry for no reason and try to beat me. My dad got "irritated" with me today. And told me to stop repeating the same thing. And said it's because I keep saying he's a failure, (which I didn't I had just said the energy he's wasting bothering me he can use to study otherwise others will get ahead of him.)

I said I will never say anything to him anymore. Whatever happens to him is not my concern anymore. And I'll just focus on bettering my own life. The worst part is my parents not telling him it's wrong to hit a "female". There are no excuses for that. One day he'll hit his wife or mother or my dad (he actually hit him once in past)... My dad kept telling me whatever happened, wouldn't have happened if I just kept my mouth shut.

I have nothing to say to my parents or brother any more. If they feel it's my fault then I really don't want to live with them. I'm unemployed currently I hope I get a job as soon as possible. I'm thankful to God for showing this side of my family to me. I now want to stay far far away from them.

I having an anxiety attack right now and my hands are shaking even typing this. Maybe they're right... Maybe I'm the problem... I don't know.... I just keep thinking all these thoughts. I have no friends to share how I feel. So if you're reading this, I consider you as my friend. What do you think?

Yesterday my brother (21) pushed and slammed me (26) on the ground 3 times. Just over a fan. He was switching it off but I said I'm cooking and I need it so stop troubling me. And I just said the amount of time you're wasting troubling me, you can just study for your upcoming cuet exam. (He has failed 12th twice, and this year result is awaited)

And he felt offended. So he came out of the room and pushed me hard. I didn't fall down. So he pushed again hard enough to slam me on the floor and everything I was holding fell down. Then I got back up and yelled why is he beating me. To which he came and pushed me hard again. Saying he'll choke me.

If he felt angry on what I said he should have replied verbally. He's really tall and fat. I'm lean girl. He can choke me or slap me to death... I know he's capable of doing that. The whole day I kept repeating that he should not have done what he did and apologise to me, and how unsafe I feel, etc. He didn't apologise.

Today too. I said I don't want to be in the same room as him. Because what if he gets angry for no reason and try to beat me. My dad got "irritated" with me today. And told me to stop repeating the same thing. And said it's because I keep saying he's a failure, (which I didn't I had just said the energy he's wasting bothering me he can use to study otherwise others will get ahead of him.)

I said I will never say anything to him anymore. Whatever happens to him is not my concern anymore. And I'll just focus on bettering my own life. The worst part is my parents not telling him it's wrong to hit a "female". There are no excuses for that. One day he'll hit his wife or mother or my dad (he actually hit him once in past)... My dad kept telling me whatever happened, wouldn't have happened if I just kept my mouth shut.

I have nothing to say to my parents or brother any more. If they feel it's my fault then I really don't want to live with them. I'm unemployed currently I hope I get a job as soon as possible. I'm thankful to God for showing this side of my family to me. I now want to stay far far away from them.

I having an anxiety attack right now and my hands are shaking even typing this. Maybe they're right... Maybe I'm the problem... I don't know.... I just keep thinking all these thoughts. I have no friends to share my how I'm feeling or ask for emotional support. So if you're reading this, I consider you as my friend. What do you think?

Yesterday my brother (21) pushed and slammed me (26) on the ground 3 times. Just over a fan. He was switching it off but I said I'm cooking and I need it so stop troubling me. And I just said the amount of time you're wasting troubling me, you can just study for your upcoming cuet exam. (He has failed 12th twice, and this year result is awaited)

And he felt offended. So he came out of the room and pushed me hard. I didn't fall down. So he pushed again hard enough to slam me on the floor and everything I was holding fell down. Then I got back up and yelled why is he beating me. To which he came and pushed me hard again. Saying he'll choke me. When my parents were back he started acting up laughing, saying I'm over exaggerating things and blaming everything on me.

If he felt angry on what I said he should have replied verbally. He's really tall and fat. I'm lean girl. He can choke me or slap me to death... I know he's capable of doing that. The whole day I kept repeating that he should not have done what he did and apologise to me, and how unsafe I feel, etc. He didn't apologise.

Today too. I said I don't want to be in the same room as him. Because what if he gets angry for no reason and try to beat me. My dad got "irritated" with me today. And told me to stop repeating the same thing. And said it's because I keep saying he's a failure, (which I didn't I had just said the energy he's wasting bothering me he can use to study otherwise others will get ahead of him.)

I said I will never say anything to him anymore. Whatever happens to him is not my concern anymore. And I'll just focus on bettering my own life. The worst part is my parents not telling him it's wrong to hit a "female". There are no excuses for that. One day he'll hit his wife or mother or my dad (he actually hit him once in past)... My dad kept telling me whatever happened, wouldn't have happened if I just kept my mouth shut.

I have nothing to say to my parents or brother any more. If they feel it's my fault then I really don't want to live with them. I'm unemployed currently I hope I get a job as soon as possible. I'm thankful to God for showing this side of my family to me. I now want to stay far far away from them.

I having an anxiety attack right now and my hands are shaking even typing this. Maybe they're right... Maybe I'm the problem... I don't know.... I just keep thinking all these thoughts. I have no friends to share how I feel. So if you're reading this, I consider you as my friend. What do you think?