Ready to start over in my 30s (m)
Well, life was good in my 20s, and just hit some sort of rock bottom. I was a world traveler... Had no regrets with my life up until now.
Slip into psychosis, got into debt, legal trouble, blew up my car, found out my family are criminals, took a bad career path, and student loans are starting back up soon (more debt). I have a house, but most likely going to sell to pay off my debt and start fresh. I can't keep feeling like this anymore. All I think about is debt. Just want a clean slate. Even though I don't have anything, or even life purpose anymore, this feels like the best option. I feel like I'm giving up, but I have really bad mental health and fighting this pain has ruin me.
I just know I enjoyed life while I could, and I want to get back to it. Rock bottom feels right. Like I need to lose everything. Why embrace this? I have been hurting for years anyhow. The world will break you, or kill you... I'm breaking.
I am still young, no need to fight this pain. Start fresh. It's rash, but the pain will be over. I can get it all back. I know I can (maybe not a house), but whatever.
I seen a post if you only had 12 months to live, what would you do?
This.
Ive always waited for things to happen in my life and never took action... This is what happens. I'm not good at anything either. This just feels right. I could never achieve anything on my own. I was always hoping something lucky would happen.
This isn't giving up, this is taking my whole life outback the barn and shooting it (as Kevin oleary would say. Shark tank\*)
I haven't gave a 100% in my life in a long time, but I finally going to do this a 100%... it sucks that this isn't positive... But just feels right. This feels like I will get my mojo back.
I won't feel like this anymore. I want to feel human again. I want to feel like myself. I got lost somewhere. And that's ok.
I didn't make good choices in my 20s. Bad friend choices, hanging around losers, and family members bringing me down. I was never a loser, but After a while, you just break.
I'm a from a town where people throw the towel in on life at 25. It was hard to break out of my hometown and hanging around losers that give up so easily for a mediocre life.... Or rich people who were just full blown scumbags... I'm neither
"You are who you be around" 💯💯💯💯💯💯
it got the best of me. I have been fighting this for over 10 years now. Massive black hole and bubble where I come from.
This isn't giving up. It's just the truth. Ive been doing this on my own since 19. It's time it stops.
I'm just ready to smile again.