u/BirdLegal818

To be honest, I fast a lot and exercise to make up for it if I eat anything; I follow the ‘Slavic Dolls’, I’m on a diet and I’ve made myself vomit (only a few times, because I don’t want to damage my teeth or my stomach). I feel like cutting myself if I don’t stick to my diets, but, honestly, I don’t think I have an eating disorder. Is it the illness playing tricks on me, or what?

I wonder about this because, although I do eat (I plan it, but I also enjoy mealtimes), I don’t have any negative thoughts whilst I’m doing so; I just think about when it’ll be time to fast again. I don’t know, all this makes me feel as if I’m not ill; I don’t think I am, but what I do seems to contradict that, and yet I don’t feel that way.

¿Es normal haber ayunado durante 37 horas y haber perdido solo 1,320lb? Pensé que perdería más.

Me gustaría volver allí, porque desde que me recuperé de mi trastorno alimenticio (comía sin dieta y me fue fatal) he engordado 22 kg y he estado intentando adelgazar de forma saludable, pero como no funciona, quiero volver y sentirme bien otra vez, con hambre. Sé que no saldrá bien, pero bueno. Solo quiero estar delgada de una vez por todas.