Omg. I have been glutening myself for months
Oh holy crap I am wrecked heart broken. After this diagnosis 4 years ago I have been extremely careful with gluten like always aware of what I’m eating and cross contamination.. I’ve only messed up 2x where I ate something with a lot of gluten and threw up.. well the diagnosis also scared that crap out of me because I was terrified that my years of undiagnosed celiac and sickness would lead to lymphoma and I convinced myself I’d be okay bc I had stopped eating it (I have a giant lymphoma fear tbh)
Anyways I have been taking dissolvable melatonin for 3 months. It has fucking wheat in it. It SAYS IT like super clearly. I cannot even begin to describe how ANGRY I am at myself. How freaked out I am about lymphoma… and how stupid is this?! I only noticed because my gastritis flare up has gotten so painful and bad that I was checking the ingredients for citric acid. My ocd has been off the charts for over a month now, fatigue so bad for months like I’m walking through cement, muscle spasms, anxiety, the gastritis omg has been SO BAD. And I did this all to myself. I don’t even know how I didn’t connect the dots or JUST CHECK.
And now my lymphoma fear has me up at midnight panicking. I am so sick of this freaking disease. For months I’ve been saying I feel like I’m dying and not knowing why. I just could not be more angry with myself