0 support from mum
I hate my life I was forced into inpatient and have gained >!10kg!< and it’s traumatised me so much
Now I’m in daycare and I’m planning on leaving next week to recover at home but I genuinely don’t get any support at home
My mum will knowingly have me not eat all day and she doesn’t give at shit
I use to be skinny at bmi >!11.9 - 12.0!< but now I’m fat she doesn’t care about me anymore
I hate how I was forced to inpatient and I feel fucking worse.
Im embarrassed about going to daycare because im 18 and i get 0 help from my parents and theres people in their 30s there who get support from their parents for decades now.
Just acknowledging that my mum doesn’t care about me makes me want to starve to death even more
I just feel so worthless and I want to die and as my mum doesn’t give a shit that I don’t eat it reinforces the idea that I don’t need to because I’m fat now
I know I need to be more independent because I’m 18 but I didn’t even WANT to gain weight. I was forced into inpatient. And if I lose weight again they said they’re going to send me back to the ward.