u/Bob_Ate_It

My account is 9 years old. I have over 500 karma. Over the past few months I’ve noticed whenever I post something I never get any comments or upvotes even on popular subs. It’s like no one can see my posts. I don’t know if I should just delete my account and start over.

Nobody views or upvotes my posts. Not sure if they are being hidden.

Once again it’s summer and I have to hear about everyone around me doing fun things while I’m stuck at home watching reruns on TV all day. I can’t drive and nobody ever wants to do anything with me. Every time I get a text, I get excited that maybe someone wants to hang out but no it’s always either a scam, Straight talk telling me my payment is due or a doctor/dentist reminding me of an appointment. Whenever I text people, they either never reply or put very little effort into it. The few friends I did manage to make never wanted to go anywhere. All they wanted to do is sit and talk for hours. Those friendships never lasted because I never have anything to talk about because I don’t go anywhere or get to do anything! Plus I have crippling social anxiety from being isolated and rejected by people for so long. I’ve never been able to keep a job because of my social issues and just live off disability.

My parents are homebodies and never want to go anywhere either. Once in a blue moon my dad will take me to a restaurant. He’s been promising to take me on a vacation for over 30 years and this year we will definitely do something! But he always makes an excuse why he can’t go. I’ve never really been anywhere. Not even to a zoo, aquarium, the beach, amusement park, or any fun places most people take for granted. I can’t go alone because I’m disabled and can’t drive. I have tried looking for clubs and meetups but there aren’t any around here that interest me.

I have been texting my dad asking if he would like to take me to Sonic or Chick-Fil-A because I’m sick of eating the same thing everyday and sick of being home all the time but he just left me on read. It’s not like he’s busy. He’s retired and just sits around watching Tik Tok videos all day.

Then around lunch time I get a text and get excited for a bit until I see it’s just the stupid dentist reminding me of my appointment. I literally cried and have been crying all day. I’m so sick of tired of being lonely and rejected by everyone.