u/Boring_University_20

I've been to therapy and I have solved a lot of issues especially with women and the transference I have. However something happened to me last year that made me more angry in my daily life as usual. I was about to buy my first own apartment when I got cheated - basically the investor used a loophole in the contract and the estate laws. I am not the only one, about 150 other people were loed to, too. However, maybe because I had a lot of hopes (even had a girlfriend at the time I wanted to start family with), this touched on a deeper wound. My country is known for being corrupt and basically for people to be cheaters. And because I have dual citizenship, I am starting to think about giving up the first one and leaving my home country forever.

That being said, I am not sure, but it may be also connected to my father, who when found out about the cheat just said "well, life is the best teacher you'll get" (or something similar. I have the usual story of absent and relatively narcissistic father towards whom I feel a lot of anger. He even gave me money for the new flat to support me, but now he wants the money back and I am not sure if I want to give it back.

At the moment I live renting a flat and trying to survive, having to take an important decision - do I stay or do I leave?

Наистина се изумявам, някакво вградено чувство за "несправедливост" ли има или просто сме прости и некомпетентни... политиците, че ще изперат пари то е ясно ама защо и ганя трябва да прави нещата по-зле?

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Дара има ADHD и си е детенце, 98 набор, все още няма 30.

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Някаква телеграм група или сайт в дарк уеб има ли, да си взема малко? Благодаря предварително.

It's a strange situation I got (30 M), where I got therapy in exchange for a given service and after the exchange is done, I decided to continue therapy with the same therapist (34 F). She did really help me and for around 25 sessions we discovered a lot regarding the transference and my feelings towards women. However therapy ended and we remained friends, even went out for a coffee twice. I am a close friend with the ex-boyfriend of my therapist and I get to see her as well him often (they work in the same building), which is definitely a trigger, but if seen from the positive side, this provides exposure I can train on. We haven't spoken for months and I haven't been to therapy since then. I wonder how I should continue, because ever since I ended therapy I feel empty - my core wound is abandonment as a child (often and for long time + a PTSD). I am afraid if I go to another therapist I will just pay for a friend to fill this emptiness inside me, because I have the feeling therapy for me is 50% filling the void, 50% helpful. I meditate at least an hour every day and this keeps me sane. Should I go to a male therapist to explore the anger towards my father? Or should I find another female therapist to explore this void further? I live alone for over a decade and while it's painful, I kinda got used to it, that I am and forever will be alone.

It's a strange situation I got (30 M), where I got therapy in exchange for a given service and after the exchange is done, I decided to continue therapy with the same therapist (34 F). She did really help me and for around 25 sessions we discovered a lot regarding the transference and my feelings towards women. However therapy ended and we remained friends, even went out for a coffee twice. I am a close friend with the ex-boyfriend of my therapist and I get to see her as well him often (they work in the same building), which is definitely a trigger, but if seen from the positive side, this provides exposure I can train on. We haven't spoken for months and I haven't been to therapy since then. I wonder how I should continue, because ever since I ended therapy I feel empty - my core wound is abandonment as a child (often and for long time + a PTSD). I am afraid if I go to another therapist I will just pay for a friend to fill this emptiness inside me, because I have the feeling therapy for me is 50% filling the void, 50% helpful. I meditate at least an hour every day and this keeps me sane. Should I go to a male therapist to explore the anger towards my father? Or should I find another female therapist to explore this void further? I live alone for over a decade and while it's painful, I kinda got used to it, that I am and forever will be alone.