Rant about my current situation. To be a sahm or not.
Idk wtf to do. I’m trying to decide between going back to work or staying home with my kid. It should NOT be this hard.
I was laid off top of the year and had to pull my kid from daycare. It’s $$$ AF and no job = can’t do that. I was looking and paying for daycare from savings (unemployment isn’t enough to cover anything) for a few months before I pulled the kiddo (toddler).
Long story short a job I was interested in reached out with more openings. I did the interview, got offered the job, and they need an answer in a few days. They are aware I don’t have daycare yet. Basically if I want the current position I have to be ready in a few weeks to start working, with a few days to figure out daycare. The one I like might have an opening top of August. I can figure out the summer… but if they don’t end up having a fall spot open the next opening isn’t until top of the new year. I explained this to the job already — and they said I can circle back to them in July and see what’s open then because they would love to have me.
Which is great! They have been wonderful so far, and it seems like a good opportunity. I just can’t get on a waitlist, you have to pay, and then not have a job to go to. I thought about maybe another daycare until I can get the one I like, but they are even more $$ which would make me negative each month. I don’t have any family who could help and the ones that would live in another state.
Reasons I want the job include money, career growth opportunities, can go on vacations, the usual reasons lol. The biggest downside is the drive would be about 50-70 minutes. And the biggest hurdle is daycare.
OR
I stay home and get to be with my kid all day. We have some really hard days, especially since screaming is now “fun”. But even then, I still love it. We just have no extra income, and live paycheck to paycheck.
I also worked a high stress job before this and it’s just been peaceful AF. The other thing is that I keep being told my kid is only little once and comments like that so I don’t want to feel like I’m missing out on anything either.
Thanks for reading. 📖