u/Boymom20152022

Title pretty much says it all, I am a 29 year old mother of two boys (3yrs and 10yrs) and I applied to nursing school for this Fall with a local community college. I found out this morning I was not accepted. I have been on and off trying over the last 5 years to complete all of my prerequisites and pass my exams while working full time and trying to be a mom, wife, room mom, etc. I attended university when I was freshly 17 at a prestigious college in my town and progressively did worse and worse as I was unable to afford living on campus and the commute coupled with having my youngest at 17 and working to pay bills was a massive difficulty.

Im now in a very loving and supportive marriage and I have been trying my absolute hardest to do all my wifely and mommy duties while attending school and working. I really, truly thought I had it in the bag with my acceptance to this college and failed to apply anywhere else as this was the most time friendly and wallet friendly option (which obviously also makes it extremely competitive which I did not initially realize).

I just feel that I am aging out and losing time to secure a well paying career to be an example to my children. I want to have consistency and stop working multiple jobs to patch together a full time work schedule. I was so ready to be committed to the future I had become to envision over this time and now I feel that Im at a standstill and I just feel so totally empty and defeated.

Im sure theres moms out there who understand, and I know I can just try again next semester, but for some reason it just feels like a such a hard blow to the chest for me- even when im usually SUCH a positive and ambitious person.

Rant over