Me, (19M), and a female friend of mine, well call her Mary, (19F), have been friends for a while now and I've developed feelings, if you want that story I've already posted it, but recently we made plans to go out tonight at our university campus and climb around. I offered the idea of bringing food and drink and mentioned how fun it would be to dance on a rooftop. Mary then said she would teach me a couple things she's been learning in her swing classes, which is a very partner based dance. I said "That sounds like a fun side quest", she responded, "Hopefully the first of many." This feels like flirtation, but I don't want to get my hopes up. She said a couple similar things while we were in person, but again, I am not known for reading body language. Were supposed top do this tonight, but we are also going top be seeing more of each other after the break since she is a player in my dnd game, so I'm worried making a premature move could screw the amazing friendship we already have. I love this girl, I write poems about her I don't ever expect her to see, she is exactly what I want in a woman, but if I mess up I could ruin future chances with her and our friendship too, so I don't know what to do. I guess what I'm looking for is input on what I should do, and if these comments of hers could be considered flirting, because as both a man and someone who is socially awkward, I have no idea. Any help is great, thanks.
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To the love of my life,
I just wanted to tell you that I lied. I lied about how I felt about you, how I still feel about you. Every time I see you my hands get shaky, the nerves I guess,
My chest warms up, my heart goes a little faster, and I think I now know why.
You’re the first woman, yes I said woman, that conversation doesn’t seem forced or one sided,
Because we share those interests which each conversation has provided.
You’re the first woman who I don't want to just listen to,
Because I get to show my passion around you.
You’re the first woman who I’ve laughed with at the mention of some dumb joke one of us made,
Because you are truly hilarious and your laugh is the most contagious thing ever conveyed.
You’re the first woman who makes my head turn when I hear their voice from behind,
Because I can’t help but listen to each word you say, each taking a place in my mind.
You’re the first woman I see when I hear a good song and close my eyes to dance with Her,
Because I can’t help but imagine dancing with you when I waltz alone in the shower.
You’re the first woman I see when in my dreams, each and every one of them,
Because even when I forget what I dreamt of, the image of you is captured even in rem.
You’re the first woman I’ve ever enjoyed getting to know,
Because now all I want is to learn more, to know more about you, each piece of cargo.
You’re the first woman I have ever felt such a longing for, deep down in my chest,
Because I didn’t know there was a hole there, wanting to be filled by you, almost obsessed.
You’re the first woman I’ve ever felt this feeling for,
Because even when I thought I couldn’t, you leave me wanting more.
You may think I’m drawn to the way you dress and the style that you carry,
What I see is someone I care about and when around you I just feel unwary.
You may think it is just your body that I’m drawn to, and you couldn’t be more wrong,
What I feel for you is beyond that, something a guy with a guitar puts in song.
You may think what these words say I feel is exaggerated,
What I have for you is something that scares my therapist, but thrills poets.
You may think of me in a totally different light, hell if I know,
What I long for is a chance to love you, a chance for these feelings to show.
Maybe one day you’ll read this, or I’ll give it to you in song or lecture,
I look forward to it, even though I know that will never happen, but to me, you are Her.
Maybe one day these feelings will fade away,
I don't look forward to it, even though you’ll never feel the same way.
To me you are everything I’ve ever dreamt of, ever dare dream of,
You make me smile even when I cry to the moon to have your love.
To me you are that person I see in the ballroom, the one with whom all I want is to dance,
You make me long for just one song, just one waltz across the floor, just one chance.
My love, I hope one day the courage and opportunity to show you this arrives,
When it comes, rest assured I will tell you, show you, as I stare into your river eyes.
If you one day feel the same, I look forward to growing old with you,
But if now, then I hope you get to find someone who you feel as strongly as I do for you,
I love you,
Yours truly and always,
The man too scared to lose you
They say the eyes are the gateway to the soul,
If that's true then her eyes are the deepest river I’ve ever dared look into.
So deep and so full of color you can’t help but dive in,
Then she looks away, pulling you from the depths and leaving you wanting more.
I wish my eyes were deep enough to keep her there,
Just for one more moment, for just one more swim.
They invite me in, just the surface begging to be explored, the depths all the more.
No matter how little light reaches the bottom of that river,
I’d let myself sink just to see that beauty,
Those colors, to feel that water around me.
Yet it is pulled away the moment she blinks
And I find myself looking forward to that next shared gaze.
It is as though I am being tricked into depths I will both never escape,
Never get to fully explore, yet I would smile as the water fills my lungs,
As the light fades I would still only see the beautiful light cascading through the surface,
I would sink into those endless depths and rest happy knowing I got to swim in her River Eyes.