u/BreadsTastierThanKey

Hello! It may seem weird posting this here after already browsing and liking the content, but I have only took a look at autistic traits/ symptoms about two weeks ago and I very much think I may have it, I accidentally went down that rabbit hole after deep diving into ADHD, unfortunately I can't reach out to a therapist/psychiatrist because I am BROKE and also because I'm afraid it would mess up my future career as a biology teacher? I'll be graduating in five years (\*cries\*) and possibly won't try to get a diagnosis until then, SORRY I GOT CARRIED AWAY, BACK TO THE TOPIC, ahem so how can I know if I'm actually autistic or not? Because if yes I got za tism, I can finally accept doing things my own way and whatnot. Please share your experiences with me :D excuse my language, English is not my mother tongue!

PS, some stuff I thought were normal but found are linked to autism (just a few that came to mind,I have a whole notebook of 'symptoms'):

•Not understanding people's emotions— I genuinely don't understand why some people react certain ways when feeling something. I don't know if this is related but the death of people in my life Don really faze me, what I feel is "oh they died? Sad, anyway" tho it does bother me sometimes when that death causes a disturbance in my routines or the things I'm used to, I don't deal well with change AT ALL even if it's positive type of change.

•Logic over emotion, no ma'am I won't give you my seat just because you're pregnant, I waited an hour and let 3 buses pass me by because they were crowded just so i can sit in the specific seat I take every single time, you chose to get on a full bus, and you chose to get pregnant, that's a YOU problem.

•I have a bit too many hobbies, and I keep trying to learn new ones. Speaking of that, I don't mean to brag but I pick up on things pretty quickly, sometimes I do it perfectly good on the first try. Could be because I try to collect every information possible and run the simulation in my head a dozen times over before I try it?

•I'm blind to social cues— I keep following strangers to shady places just because they seem nice, then a couple days later I'll be replaying the events in my head and overanalyze it until I get to a point where I pause and think: "wait a minute , that could have gone completely wrong".

•Also, sometimes I latch to a sentence and replay it over and over and over again in my head. Dunno why.

And apparently, not everyone vibes to the music they hear in their heads?