Depressed and can’t live on anymore
I have been staggering ever since Covid, never got a graduation since I had to leave school early, did well on my own studying for my O levels but flunked My A levels. I decide to take a foundation course to finally apply to a university around the same time my peers had already joined or were about to. I finish my foundation and my single mom can’t afford a university in the UK as she’s lost her job. After a whole 2 - 3 years of working and saving with my mom who’s later found new work with me, I finally decide to apply early in Jan and find a Uni that I resonate with this year, estatic to join a UK university, as my foundation is only recognized there. I get accepted into two (the university of Hull and Bradford being accepted In late May) one of them being my top pick, it also being the cheapest yet quality university. I find ways to try and pay the deposit but it’s too expensive as I’m an international student with a sub par passport. Now for the past few months I’ve been crying, praying and asking around for financial aid yet to no avail. The deadline approaches for the exorbitant deposit to be paid and my mom is unable to as she’s stretched thin with paying bills and the countries constant inflation and even having to take my siblings out of school. The deadline is on the 21st of this month and I’m yet again going to miss out on another year while my friends are now graduating and starting their own work meanwhile I’m stuck at the age of 22 desperate to leave this country and join a university so I can get a good degree and solid job so then I can support my family. But of course can’t do anything else.
As for opportunities and Universities in the country I’m in currently, they’re so much more expensive and these ones I’ve seen are jokes. Paying out of your ass for terrible education.
I have even searched in other countries to apply and move forward with but they require me to apply with something different or take my high school education again which is something I don’t want to do and also can’t do.
I can’t move forward, I’m stuck alone under the roof of my mom and can’t find my way at all. I think I might just give up.