u/BringBackSmilodon

Looking for people to talk to about life, cats, absurd humor, would you rather questions, etc. I just got a new piano this past weekend, and that's keeping me afloat for now, but it's been dark lately. My favorite bands are The Birthday Massacre and Daedric.

So, I've been to this practice twice; the first time, I had an evaluation done, but they didn't have room for me in therapy or med management so they gave me a list of other providers (none in my network) and sent me on my way. Well, my friend had been going there, they have evening appointments, and my insurance covered visits there at 100%. I gave it another shot a few months ago, started out with a therapist that I really, really enjoyed, but had to switch because she was also my ex's therapist. Conflict of interest, fine, I was devastated, but whatever. I've been seeing this other guy and it's been ok, but here's the big issue ... I've been trying to get an appointment with med management for 2 months, called 6 times, and they lied to me about referring out personality disorders because my ex gets treated there and gets medication. In addition to saying they'd call me back multiple times and never doing it. Well, Friday I called, asked to talk to someone in med management, they said they would call me back later or Monday, and I lost it. I've heard that same line so many times now, and it never happened, so I told them to cancel my appointment and that I was done. Well, my therapist called, asked what was going on, said they can actually get me in now, but I didn't believe it so I told him too that I was done. I don't trust them. Maybe I could've (should've) continued therapy, but I felt invisible for months, told them how much I was struggling, and was so patient, but it feels too convenient that I finally have enough and now they have room for me. Did I make a mistake?

About a month ago, I started at this new practice, really clicked with my therapist, but after the first week, she realized that my ex is a patient of hers, so I had to be reassigned to someone else because she thought it was a conflict of interest. Well, I had my second session with this new guy, got in my car after, took a deep breath and screamed "what was the point of that?". I am getting nothing from him. I have major problems that I need perspective on happening right now, but he keeps wanting to go back to when I was a teenager and talk about that. I asked whether this coping mechanism I've been using is mental gymnastics or if it's actually healthy and we just kind of moved past it without addressing it.

Should I give it another session or call and try to switch now?

I preordered directly from BOTM, and I'm not in a rush, I'm just curious if anyone else's figures have shipped yet. I can't wait!

I'm trying to use SAP P96 to process out some returns, I have the LE number, but I keep hitting a wall. There's a step where I select the location to pull the stock from, but no matter what location I try, it won't let me pull anything. I've asked my managers, they say they'll look into it, but I never hear about it again, and in the meantime, I have no idea what I'm doing. I have some documents, but they seem to be missing steps. I have so many questions, but there's no one here I can ask since the person who did this before me left before I started.

If any of that makes sense to anyone, please let me know because I'm soooooo frustrated right now.

We've been together for 13 years, but I found out recently that she has HSV1. I got tested, and I'm thankfully negative, but I don't know what to do. I still love her and we used to be really affectionate, but I've completely pulled away. I don't even want to be touched. I don't see a way forward together.

Did your marriage end because of a shocking revelation?

Are you generally unhappy with romantic partners, but ending the relationship feels impossible? I feel like I have no idea what's real sometimes because I'll be so certain that I want to end it, but get so sad when I start thinking about doing it. I guess it's just my way of constantly sabotaging myself.